Post # 1
If you read my first wedding recap you would know that I have a now 15 year old dog, Cody, that has been deteriorating slowly over the last few years. He gave us a scare at our rehearsal dinner the night before our wedding but turned out to be alright and I got to have my picture taken with my little man on my wedding day. I got Cody on my 13th birthday and I really don’t know life without him.
Well now the time has come. In the last few weeks he has become less coherent. He has been blind and deaf for awhile but still knew his way around our house and was still happy, coherent and excited to see us and food. In the last week or so that has changed, I believe that dementia has set in as he longer knows his way around, bumps into things, gets lost in the backyard, and we have to take him to his food to eat.
I have spent the last few weeks making sure that I am making the right decision and I now know that I am. He is happiest when he is sleeping and seems anxious when he is awake. I saw the vet a couple days ago because he gets severe anxiety in the car lately and I didn’t want his last hour to be in that state. So the vet gave me some valium so that he will be sedated for when I am taking him in – I am happy about this because what I really want is him to just go to sleep in his own home where he is comfortable. Kind of think that I should have got some valium for myself as I am a mess and will be for the next little while. I know I am doing the right thing but it just doesn’t make it any easier.
The whole thing is just surreal, especially the part where you book an appointment. I couldn’t even do it – I had to leave that to my hubby and I went to have another breakdown in the car. His appointment is on Monday at 6pm and so this weekend I am just spending the whole weekend at home with my boy even though he mainly just sleeps I know he is happier when I am home.
I know a lot of you girls have been through this yourself and so I am reaching out to the hive for support. Please have Cody, Mr. M and I in your thoughts on Monday.
ETA: Here is a pic of me with Cody on our wedding day
Post # 3
I’m sorry to hear that. You’re making me tear up a little!
My childhood dog died at about 17 years old a few years ago, and I still can’t bring myself to get a replacement.
Such a sad week for the bee pets 🙁
Post # 4
Oh i’m all teary reading this post. I’m so sorry. I’ve had my dog for almost four years and can’t imagine what your going thru. You seems to have thought alot about what’s best and doing things to make him feel loved. ((HUGS))
Post # 5
So sorry to hear about your loss! How awesome that you have such great photos with him, though!
Post # 6
Aww, I remember reading your recap post about him too. I am so, so sorry to hear that. He seems like a sweet little boy who has been given a lifetime of love.
I will be sending lots of hugs and warm thoughts to you and Cody in the coming days.
Post # 7
I’m so sorry to hear this. I had my cat, Precious, for 13 years when I had to put her to sleep. She had cancer and I had a wonderful 5 months with her after I found out. I had her creamated. She’s in a pretty pink urn and I have her on a shelf with photo books, a phot collage, and stuffed animals people got me when I had to put her down. I get to say hi to her everyday and tell her I love her before I go to bed. She was my everything.
Cry as much as you want to, it’s okay. Losing a pet is just like losing a family member. Your pet was there for you and listened to your secrets. It’s tough and the first few months after will be the hardest. You’ll remember little things they did and how much you loved them. Good luck, this can be a very heartwrenching time.
Post # 8
Thanks for all your kind words it does mean a lot. Even though I am not alone this time feels very lonely and it is great to hear that your thoughts are with us and that others have made it through this hard time.
Post # 9
I am crying reading this. I had my childhood dog for the same amount of time, and he even looked kind of similar. It’s so hard to let them go. I just like to think about him running and playing like when he was a puppy. Okay…now I am sobbing…
Here’s Gus. The hardest part is feeling like I will never love any animal as much as I loved him.
Post # 10
@ILikePink: Gus is adorable. Thanks for your kind words. Today is really hard – I just can’t believe that he won’t be here tomorrow, ya know?
Post # 11
Aww, I am so sorry 🙁
My family had to put down our puppy last year who we’d had since I was 12. I still find it strange when I go to my parents’ house and she isn’t there anymore.
I will keep you and Cody in my thoughts.
Post # 12
@Future Mrs. Martin.
I am so sorry for the pain you’re feeling. I know it all too well. I never dreamed I wouldn’t have my Cheyenne there for me on our wedding day, but sadly I had to put her down February 8, 2010 due to bone cancer. She was the love of my life. While Cheyenne wasn’t my childhood doggie. I did have her throughout my adult life. I got her when I was 24 and she was 10 weeks old. She was 11 1/2 when I had to put her down. She lived a very long life for a great dane and not a day goes by that I don’t think about her. I wrote about her passing here.
People may think I am crazy or melodramatic over a dog, but there will be a picture of her at our reception and my bouquet will have locket with her picture in it as well. She was my baby. <3
I’m sending you lots of love and light. It’s not an easy thing to do <3
Post # 13
I am so sorry, Mrs. Martin. I am terrified of what you are going through. You and Cody will be in my thoughts today. He’s such a cute little guy, and I think it’s awesome that he was able to share in your wedding day with you. You will always have that to look back on, and smile fondly.
I have a husky that I got when I was in the 5th grade. In just a couple weeks, she will be turning 15. There are few people that have been in my life that long, and the fact that she’s a dog that has been apart of my life for so long is amazing. She has some bad knees, and arthritis, and she is balding a bit. But I love her as much as I did when we got her almost 15 years ago. Good luck today, and remember all of your good times <3
Me and Stormy
Post # 14
I’m so, so sorry. I went through this five years ago with my dog, Casey who I also got when I was 13 yrs old. (He was 13 and had kidney failure) It was absolutely awful, but I promise you it WILL get easier with time and you will get through this. It’s heart-wrenching, I know, but lean on your husband for support and you’ll get through this hard time. Now, I think of Casey with just fond memories. We just decorated our Christmas tree last week and I hung up “his ornament” right in the center as I always do (it’s a stocking that says Casey on it) and each night I can see it while sitting on the sofa. It makes me smile and think of all the wonderful memories we had of him playing frisbee, all the silly things he did, how he chewed my favorite shoes in 9th grade!, the way he gave me “doggie kisses”. You will be OK. And he won’t suffer anymore. You’ll never, ever lose the bond you had. You’ll carry it in your heart forever.
Not sure if you have seen this before. If not, read this if you’d like. I know it has helped many people!
Post # 15
I lost my cat a few years ago…. It’s so hard, he came into our home when I was in the first grade and was he was in my life for 13 years…. I really grew up with that cat! I cried for 2 days straight after he passed. I am so sorry for your loss, but I am so happy that Cody made it into your wedding photos! What a beautiful reminder you will have of you and your best friend!!
I will be thinking of Cody, you and your family today. <3
Post # 16
I’m so sorry you’re having to go through this. I’ve had to say goodbye to three dogs and a cat in the past four years or so. I know how hard it is and how it doesn’t seem real and like they should be gone. We took in my grandmother’s dog when she died and she got to the point of being blind, deaf, kidney problems, and getting lost in our yard so I know how hard that is to watch. Again, I’m so sorry you have to deal with this and I’ll be thinking about you and Cody.