- 10 years ago
- Wedding: September 2010
Ok… So recently I have been freaking out a little bit. Ok a lot bit! So I am planning on having my brother walk me down the aisle because my father died when I was young. My fear starts with being an uncomfortable “bride” in fact I told my mom she wasn’t allowed to call me the bride any more because it made me feel really uncomfortable. I don’t like being started at and being the center of attention. It’s not like i have issues with social situations or really mind having people look at me. But the idea of having EVERYONE staring at me really freaks me out. I am scared that I will enter the church freeze and turn around! I want to be married! I just don’t want everyone to stare at me.
Another fear would be that the band will not get the memo that there isn’t supposed to be a father daughter dance and will call for one. (i will lose it!) Promise this isn’t an out of the blue fear! My family had a big party for my cousin and I when we were in College and the band called us on the stage and then asked for our dads to come for for a father daughter dance. I was standing on stage by myself while my uncle and cousin danced beside me. I couldn’t help but feel overwhelmed and had to spend a good bit of the rest of the party clearing my face of runny mascara!