Post # 1
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Bee Keeper
- Wedding: August 2013 - The Liberty House
Sorry in advance for how whiny this is going to sound but I really needed to get this out:
I have my last two exams tomorrow and for one of my classes, I think I am going to just have to do as much studying as I can until 9 a.m., and then BEG my professor for a C-, which I don’t even deserve considering the complete lack of interest and motivation I have for this class, and the amount of work I have put into it (nothing.)
I am so worried becasue I really just need to get out of here and should have been able to get an A in this class if I could find it in myself to put the effort in, but I just can’t. There are so many more exciting things coming up in the new future (like getting engaged!) and it is so unbelievably difficult to focus. I am notorious for procrastination (like right now!), and every time I come back to school I fall into the worst depressions and develop anxiety issues that disappear once I am back home near SO and my family.
I just wish I could find it in myself to be the same person that got into this school in the first place, before it stomped all over me and drained me to the point that if I don’t pass this class (the last one I need to graduate) I don’t know if I could even bring myself to come back.
Of course, none of my family understands because they just tell me I should be lucky to have the opportunity to go to a prestigious university and to stop complaining. If only they knew what it felt like to be here. The only real friend I have here has such bad anxiety issues and strange belief structures that she stresses me out, and everyone else I just really can’t stand or fit in with for one reason or another. I’m a social person! I need human interaction! And I just honestly don’t care about learning material for a class for a degree I’m not even going to use, and mad that my parents made me stay here instead of transferring to a school closer to home where I could have guaranteed gotten full scholarship instead of blowing close to $200,000 to come out miserable and broken with no idea what I want to do with my life career-wise.
/end rant
Post # 3
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Blushing bee
YOU CAN DO IT!!!!!!!!!! I know this semester sucks…I feel the SAME way! None of my classes motivated me to actually want to do the work..or even show up! The end is near, and you’re just feeling the major effects of senioritis, but you’ve GOT to push through! We all believe in you, just do the best you can!!!
If you need anymore encouragement, or to swap school war stories, just pm me!
Good luck tomorrow!! : )
Post # 4
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Bee Keeper
- Wedding: August 2013 - The Liberty House
Thanks! Just being away from everything good in life and having to live every day in an apartment building infested with roaches and mice, surrounded by miserable people sucks! Luckily it’s over tomorrow no matter what.
Post # 5
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Busy bee
Hang in there. I know how you feel to be unmotivated. I had a terrible case of senior-itis my last, oh, 3 years of my first degree.
Are your parents paying? If they are not then maybe it’s time to make your own executive decision. Why should you be saddled with a ton of debt for someone else’s dream for you?
If you feel like you can’t talk to your parents and can’t transfer schools then at least look into counceling services on campus. I can’t tell you how many times they helped me out. They are most likely already built into your tuition cost, so utilize them.
ETA: I just re-read your post and it seems this is your last semester. Hang in there. I’m sure everything will be okay. However, my advice stands to anyone who might find themselves in your position.
Post # 6
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Honey bee
Oh my gosh, I know exactly how you feel! that is just how I felt my last three semesters. It was the worst feeling and until I had that diploma in my hand I couldn’t believe it was really over. it took me a really long time to forget that feeling.
However, there is a big difference in having a degree (in anything really) and not finishing. Even if it’s just one class. Tell yourself you are done with school, just gotta get through this (if you are going through hell, keep going!!)
Honestly, when you are done, you not believe the cloud that lifts from your shoulders, the weightless freedom of being finished. feels SO good! you can get there!!
Post # 7
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Busy bee
I feel like that often (3 semesters off) but then I’m tough with myself. Yes, I would rather read wedding stuff, but I would MUCH MUCH rather not work at a grocery store the rest of my life. School sucks, but you can tough it out! Good luck with getting your C-. 🙂
Post # 8
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Bee Keeper
- Wedding: August 2013 - The Liberty House
Thanks for all the support, guys! yes, my parents are paying, for which I am very grateful. I finished all my exams (two within 4 hours this morning on 0 sleep! #TIH) so now it’s just a waiting game…
Post # 9
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Buzzing bee
GET OUT OF MY HEAD!
I’m beyond stressed out this week because I’ve procrastinated so much this semester and really lacked any interest in the classes I was taking. It’d be by the grace of god if I got a C in either class.
WE CAN DO THIS!! We just need to put forth all effort we can until then.
Post # 10
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Sugar bee
I had this same thought-process: intensely rigorous school, ZERO motivation even though I was super smart. lots of bad grades and I didn’t even care, I just wanted to go home and forget all about school.
I went to the doctor– turns out I had depression and anxiety issues. I went on anti-depressants and got into grad school and have gotten 4.0s since. I don’t want to press medication or illness on you, but it’s certainly worth consideration.
Also, my graduate school is less rigorous than my undergrad. While I appreciate the undergrad years for teaching me some important theory and really exercising my procrastination muscles, I’m so happy to be out of there and somewhere where I can be a big fish in a small pond again! I can crank out papers like nobody’s business.
Post # 11
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Busy bee
I just wish I could find it in myself to be the same person that got into this school in the first place, before it stomped all over me and drained me to the point that if I don’t pass this class (the last one I need to graduate) I don’t know if I could even bring myself to come back.
This is absolutely the STORY OF MY LIFE right now. I hate hate hate that I’m being judged based on these courses that I’m only completing to graduate, and the thought of another semester terrifies me. If I don’t get the C- grades I need to graduate in May 2012 as planned, I’ve already told my parents and Fiance I won’t be coming back. JUST. CAN’T. DO. IT. ANYMORE.
But as @bookworm88 mentioned, I also have anxiety issues, and seemingly depression over grades, school, and etc. The sooner I am out of here the better!
Post # 13
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Worker bee
I am so in the same boat!!! I am so sick of school and am here on the bee procrastinating as well lol.
Post # 14
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6215 posts
Bee Keeper
- Wedding: August 2013 - The Liberty House
@nikkillette: lol, I can tell you from the other side of the mountain that it gets better!
