Self-esteem/ body image spin-off

posted 2 years ago in The Lounge
Post # 46
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Bee Keeper
  • Wedding: September 2017

lightningbumble :  I struggle with my self image and self esteem and always have.  There was a lot of conflict within my family growing up so I found myself tip toeing around trying not to cause additional strife.  In my head I had to be perfect to accomplish this.  Perfection is not attainable and I have unrealistic expectations for myself.  This is what my self esteem issues are based around.

I’ve actually been told all my life and by many people that I am pretty or that I could or should be a model.  This positive feedback has not changed my mindset.  Self esteem comes from within.  People could shower me all day long with compliments but I still have my own interal battle to overcome.

Post # 47
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5049 posts
Bee Keeper
  • Wedding: September 2017

newbee33 :  Love our To Do list and “Be Awesome” item.  A few months back I started a daily gratitude list and it has done wonders for re-wiring my negative mindset.

Post # 49
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Busy bee
  • Wedding: June 2017

I have pretty high self esteem and in general don’t worry too much about what others think of me.

I know I’m not the most drop-dead gorgous woman in the world and there are plenty of other women I’d consider more attractive than myself, but I’d hardly put myself in the unattractive pool either.

I was always told as a small child that I was pretty; however, I don’t know if that is truely a reason for how I feel about myself now or not.

 

Post # 50
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Helper bee

I think I have decent body image. I’m an hour glass, and thin with just right amount of curves. I have plump lips, a symmetrical face and would be considered attractive by most standards. I dress nice, do my hair and makeup and keep in shape.

My problems lies within my self esteem. I don’t feel worthy or anyone or anything, sometimes I don’t even feel worthy of life. I have an eating disorder and have been for a decade now. I’m in therapy for it, but it’s not working. I think partly because I don’t feel like I deserve to get better, so I don’t bother or want to (if that makes sense). Sometimes I feel like even if I got admitted to hospital with health complications resulting from my eating disorder I would tell the doctors ‘don’t waste your time on me, there are more important, worthy patients to treat here’. My eating disorder is not about looking good – it’s makes me more sickly looking if anything and is destroying my teeth so it’s not about looking good – I don’t know why I do it really. I guess I like the feeling of control is gives me, perhaps it’s because I feel like I can achieve something if can lose weight or willingly starve myself?

I don’t even know. I’m rambling now. Sorry for the depressing post, but I guess it just proves you can know you look attractive and still fee shit about yourself and your life.

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