- Mrs. Boom
- 8 years ago
- Wedding: May 2011
I was extremely excited when I got into the University of Florida. I had high hopes that my fiancee would find a job here or I could arrange my schedule so that I only go to school 2 days a week. Gainesville is 2 hours away from our apartment in Jacksonville and it seemed feasible. Then a few months after I got in, reality set in… I was going to have to get my own place here in Gainesville. I just got a new car with a maintenance warranty that we didn’t want to wear out in a year since it HAS to last for awhile, my classes had to be monday-friday, and there aren’t many job options here since it is basically just a college town- so he is staying in Jacksonville.
So, here I am… sitting on the new bed we got me for the new room I moved into… all by myself. After three and a half years of sleeping in the same bed as him it’s hard to even remember what it’s like to sleep alone. I could have transferred to the local University but this school is so much better and provides so many more opportunities. I am hoping next semester I can figure out how to do classes Tuesday through Thursday so I can see him more than on the weekend. I just don’t know how to be by myself anymore. It all feels so strange. We are getting married in May and I just moved out. It is very ironic.
Has anyone else had to go through something similiar in their relationship? I know we are strong enough to get through it and I have already decided that if me being away starts to harm our relationship I will transfer to the local university asap. But does it get easier to be alone? I just feel sad but don’t want to stress him out about it, especially because his car broke today… my first day away… great sign right? :/ I want to give this a REAL try because it was very competitive to get in and an awesome school. I feel like I will do okay until I have to go to sleep. 🙁