- 5 years ago
- Wedding: December 2013
Hi all out there,
I’m a new member but have been lurking for some time. I live in Australia in a small town where it was really hard for me to find I dress, I ended up having to drive 4hrs to Sydney to go to the major chain store – David Jones Bridal – there.
Anyway – I’m a size 16 and quite short (5 foot 4) so pretty curvy. And when I got to the store they said I was too large to try anything on. All the sample sizes were 6-8. This of course made me leave in tears. I’ve had body image issues for year, on top of depression and my little sister having a terminal illness this was the last thing I needed.
My bridesmaid ended up convincing me to go to a smaller designers botique while we were there, where I managed to try on a bunch of the dresses. I bought my dress there that day – and I loved it. Its called Harlow, by Karen Willis Holmes. I thought that it flattered me in all the right places, didn’t make me look shorter and fatter then I am, and was lace which I love.
Today, I had my first fitting since I bought the dress. I travelled up to Sydney again, this time with my Dad. Obviously because it was a first fitting the dress needed some major changes. It was way too long, the staps hadn’t been fixed yet and the bust needed to be seamed – but I found myself struggling to see past all that.
I ended up leaving feeling concerned that it made me look bigger – again. And that on the wedding day I’ll look short, fat and dumpy. I’m really struggling, because I can’t even throw myself into diet and exercise anymore then I have – because then the dress will be too big and I’ve already stretched the budget to purchase the dress anyway. Extra fittings will be really difficult to cover the cost of.
I guess what I’m asking is – is it normal for me to feel like this? Sometimes as a size 16, I feel like I’m not plus size, but I’m not regular sizes either. I just want to feel like a beautiful bride on my wedding day – what my fiance deserves.
Here is the dress for reference: