- 8 years ago
- Wedding: September 2011
a little back ground. my dad has been in prison since i was 5. (thats 18 years) i cannot remember my dad before prison. just khaki jumpsuits and guards. he has never met my fiance or even my daughter. he has missed every major mile stone in my life so far. prom, first boyfriend graduation, the birth of his ONLY grand child (im his only kid) it has been over 2 years since i visited him last since he couldnt stay out of trouble…here is where i start freaking out…
he got out today. ya…he was released at noon today, delivered to my grandpa at the bus station at 3 and will be arriving at the bus station by where i live in an hour and a half. im freaking out. he will only be here for an hour before he continues on to California for his PO and halfway house for the next 6 months then house arrest for another 6 months. i am so nervous about him meeting my Fiance since he has never met ANY guy i have dated let alone the one i plan to marry and spend the rest of my life with. im scared of how my daughter will react. she has never seen someone with sooo many tattoos let alone someone we expect her to call grandpa. im excited to see him but it will be strange to see him not in khaki surrounded by guards watching our every move.
my biggest fear with him being out is that he will go back to prison and miss my last big milestone in life.. a lot of things have changed in 18 years. cell phones, computers, laws, people. heck when he went in i was barely potty trained and starting kindergarten. now im 22 almost 23, out of college, a mother and getting married. with all this freaking out i expected for Fiance to be at least a little nervous about meeting my dad but what is he doing?? playing video games having a grand old time.
so as i get ready for the most long awaited day of my life im trying not to shake or smoke a whole pack of cigarettes. i have cleaned the ENTIRE kitchen including base boards and the walls. checked my face book about 50 times and now blogging a bit to try to calm down and its not working.
any ladies have a better idea of how i can chill out in less than an hour? lol