- 7 years ago
- Wedding: April 2006
I know I’m posting this at the risk of sounding shallow and vain. But im really not. I got engaged at 18 while still at school to the most amazing man in the world. We let me chose my ring, I chose I small, dainty yellow gold ceylon sapphire surrounded by a cluster of tiiiiny diamonds. I had wanted white gold but he said he preferred yellow. I went with this rng because i thought it was so pretty and also in budget. To be honest I think I was so young and not into jewellery and I just wanted to be engaged and didn’t want to wait a long time for my ring. We got married when I was at university and just turned 20. I was still not into jewellery and being young and dumb didnt get much excited by rings and didnt realise a wedding band had to be ordered in…I went down a week before and had to take a horrible thick gold band that looks awful next to my dainty engagement ring. My hubby promised when we had more money in a few years we would get a set I loved.
So…the wedding day was lovely but as I was so young and just not caught up in the whole wedding thing, I just wanted him to be my husband. It’s only now Im older (25) and my friends are getting married Im getting serious wedding envy. Their days are soooo personal to them and perfect. My husband worked 6ths in a crappy job he hated to pay for my dress. I look back now at my photos and think i look fat in it, i was a little chubby then and it didnt really flatter my figure. Now I feel I have really found the person I am, I’ve lost weight, realise I love vintage style etc and am sad I won;t get the chance to incorporate this into my big day. I would just do it all differently if I could do it over again. I look at my friends pics and they are soooo gorgeous I cant help but be jealous. I know this is ridiculous as Im still crazy in love with my man and thats all that should matter…
Back to the rings…last year my husband bought me a white gold flower cluster which is very pretty and sparkles like crazy. I never got around to buying a wedding band and look permanatly engaged. I had our beautiful son, lost all my weight and now the cluster doesn’t fit. I have the option of getting it resized and buying a band or….a new bridal set and wearing the cluster on my right hand. My husband said he is happy to buy the new bridal set as it will mean I have two beautiful rings once and for all, as long as I promise to wear them forever and never ask fr another. I can’t believe how understanding he is. This set iv seen is on offer only until today and it is sooo me. Very vintage. But I feel so guilty that I am asking for yet another ring. I feel I am maybe trying to make up for my big day by getting the perfect ring. I feel like even nthough the rings are totally totally gorgeous they wont have sentiment as they are neither my real engagement ring nor wedding band. However I am never going to be wearing my real wedding band so i guess it shouldnt matter. I need to decide asap wat to do. My little yellow gold sapphire is still sparking upstairs. It’s pretty, but verry dainty and even though I get a warm fuzzy feeling when I wear it of how it reminds me of how happy we were picking it out, I get serious ring envy when I see other peoples vintage style rings that I know if I was to get engaged myself now I would choose. Another option I guess is to buy instead, a thin gold band to wear wth the sapphire and a sparly eternity ring to jazz up the sapphire ring. However I know I will always be wishing for the vintage style that I love. Im just so sad and angry at myself that my rings can’t be what i really really love and have the sentiment of my real rings 🙁 I know I sound sooo shallow but if you knew me you would know I;m not. Maybe I should go with this bridal set and let it be my ring set forever than sentiment would come??? Please help before I go completly crazy.