- 6 years ago
- Wedding: December 1969
My first post here, I’ve loved reading all yours and getting inspiration and advice.
Anyways I am seriously second guessing every decision I’m making at the moment, it’s a short engagement (4 months) and I really would’ve liked a year or so to lose weight, save some pennies and make real decisions and I feel like every choice made is done for ease or beacuse of the timescale.My OH is really not into helping at all, he seriously doesn’t care and just knows it’ll work as I’ll do my level best to make sure its an enjoyable day for us both. All the decisions Ive made have been to please other people, the venue was hired for 3 days to accommodate OH friends and family as its a 10 hr drive, and has free beds. and now theyve all booked into b and bs even though we said there was free beds for them on site.
Also he keeps saying we dont need to spend money on a photographer and his mate will do it but Id really like a good photographer as im not the most photogenic and if i just saw some pics of his mates it might be okay but theres no communication between them, he’ll probably just say ‘bring your camera’ the day before. We are doing the catering etc which we’ll probably end up going to costco the day before. my parents have ended up forking out half the cost as im their only daugter and they realise the plans weve been discussing is not my idea of a special day at all. Im not asking too much, happy to have a party in a field i just wish he’d realise what this day means to me. He struck off the underwear and make up and hair budget as we cant afford it, so now worried about looking a mess. and because im bigger and few stores had UK size 18 dresses in stock i bought the only one that did up as we didnt have time to order one and now im majorly regretting my choice. Its nothing like what i had in mind, i woudlve loved a princess one and im worried that without good underwear it’ll all ruche up and look like a mess as theres no boning at all which i really wanted and its a zip back.
Anyway I DO love him, very scared of the whole marriage idea anyway and HATE having to spend all this money on one day when we have debts and are still renting. I know I’ll enjoy the day as my friends and family will be tere, just need a little encourageent i think.
Perhaps I should just take my hay-fevery self off for a long walk. Thanks for listening