- 8 years ago
I’ve been having a very difficult waiting week since Valentine’s Day. I got through the V-day challenge without mentioning anything wedding related to Boyfriend or Best Friend since October, except for one money-related conversation in December when I found out that my brother is getting married next year and that my parents will be paying for his wedding.
I am finding it so difficult to wait right now, for a number of reasons:
1. We are going on a romantic holiday in April for our two-year anniversary and I really don’t want to ruin the holiday by getting my hopes up and then be disappointed when it doesn’t happen.
2. Boyfriend or Best Friend is looking into training to be an accountant. He will probably be able to get a paid training position with a firm, but failing that he will need to pay for classes himself. We tentatively discussed getting married in the summer of 2012, but I don’t know if he will want to put money towards our wedding while at the same time paying for classes. We haven’t discussed this yet, and I am reluctant to break my “engagement silence” because I don’t want to pressure him.
3. In September I sent Boyfriend or Best Friend an email with links to pictures of rings I like, so he knows what to look for. I included only diamonds as I at the time had my heart set on diamond rings. However, I recently found out that my favourite jeweller sell white gold tanzanite rings (which is my birth stone), and now I think those as just as beautiful as diamonds. I particularly like these two:
The question is: should I have another conversation with Boyfriend or Best Friend about a wedding timeline now that his career plans have changed slightly? And should I show him these ring pictures? I am so reluctant to break the silence, but at the same time keeping quiet with all these questions in my head is driving me crazy 🙁