- 6 years ago
After the past couple days I have come to the conclusion that it’s finally over between my Boyfriend or Best Friend and I. We have been together for 2 years and I love him so much. We have had a rocky relationship (him lying and cheated) in the beginning but from that point we have been trying to get things on track. I have been hurting and having a hard time forgiving him and I have said some hurtful things out of anger to put him down. I have two other posts venting about us one on us arguing all the time and the other on me being a strong women and he can’t handle it. But now that I’m seeing that it may be over. I don’t want it to be. I have tried having talks about things to smooth things over which I hate doing because I feel like I always do it , but yet he want to be “the man” but he doesn’t want to man up like he needs to be. I feel like he should be the one smoothing things over not me. I didn’t do anything wrong he did. It’s hard to let go of something you have invested all your time and energy into and to just let it go like that man it’s a hard thing. I thought he was the one for me and that we were going to be together forever and we were going to have kids together and everything. I want my honey back I want this relationship to be like it was but it seems there is no way it’s going to happen he is to suborn and immature and I don’t think he wants me anymore and it hurts. I say that because he doesn’t fight for us anymore I do. He still does things for me(giving me a temp place to stay for a few months) but I don’t see the sparkle in his eyes its like he have shut down on me and I have to be the person to jump start him again. Part of me feel like why should I, I didn’t make things the way that they are now, why am I the one chasing after him he should be chasing after me to get me back and make this relationship work! Its crazy how things can take a turn for the worst , just last month we were looking for rings.
What should I do, how to let go of someone you thought was the one? Give me input please.