- 6 years ago
- Wedding: September 2018
I am feeling so disillusioned with the whole waiting thing.
I was talking with a friend last night and I realised I just don’t want to wait anymore. I even talked about getting married right now (even though it’s impossible) or eloping. At this moment in time I just don’t understand why we’re waiting.
As some of you may know SO is moving for work next month (14 hour flight) and we’re super excited. I will follow him after I finish uni.
I’m hoping that he proposes before he leaves, I know it sounds silly. And it’s not like we don’t know it’s coming at some point but I think I’d just feel a whole lot happier emigrating if I had a ring on my finger.
Last night I was thinking this: if we stick to the timeline (probably engaged by September) and then potentially have to compromise on a few things anyway because I don’t especially want a long engagement. Then why are we not getting hitched now? Part of me thinks I’ll miss a big family wedding but ultimately it’s about the marriage not a party. I was thinking immediate family only, before September. I’ve even been browsing venues (here and overseas where his new job is based)
It’s all hypothetical, I’ve not broached a lot of these topics with SO as I’ve tried to keep the engagement/marriage talk to a minimum. Given the circumstances do you think we should have a talk regarding this? Or do you think I’m panicking a bit? (I don’t feel panicked just frustrated) I know it’ll be hard with him away, and a visa would be nice. No way do I want to get married for a visa, I don’t want to be pressured like that but I wonder if I am feeling so subconsciously?
Oh, I don’t know!