(Closed) Should I tell him?

posted 6 years ago in Emotional
Post # 4
1642 posts
Bumble bee
  • Wedding: October 2012

@ScaredeeBee:  This is a toughy. I think that telling your Fiance, especially if he has never expressed interest in hearing about this part of your life, may surprise him. But I think it would be a heavy burden to hold onto this for the rest of your lives. Has this ever presented a problem in the past? I know you say you still didn’t see this as a violation, but has it ever caused any mistrust or uneasiness in your relationship? If so, you should tell him. If not, I would find someone to talk to, like a counselor, to begin to let go of this part of your life.

Post # 5
21 posts
  • Wedding: February 2013

Hey there hun. I say you tell him. Look as it as a chance to be closer. He loves you. End of story. He won’t run and it won’t make you a victim. You’ll still be a strong woman in his eyes. Wishing you the best. 

Post # 6
1963 posts
Buzzing bee
  • Wedding: January 2013

First of all I am sad to hear about what happened to you:( fair enough if you don’t see the man who took your virginity as a negative experience, but what you step dad did is 100% wrong and you did not deserve that or cause that in any way. From your post you seem really conflicted on whether or not this is an “important” event. Do you think your Fiance would be hurt if he found out later on that you didn’t tell him about these events?


Post # 7
1370 posts
Bumble bee
  • Wedding: April 2012

If it’s bothering you I think you should tell him. If you feel like you’re lying about it. On the other hand you don’t feel like a victim, and he would rather not know. The thing is, if it’s bothering you I think he’d rather know. I’m sure he wants you to feel at ease about it. I’m sure he won’t think any less of you for it.

I’m sorry you went through that. Seriously. I hope you figure it out!

Post # 8
7293 posts
Busy Beekeeper
  • Wedding: October 2011

Well, I think everyone has a past, and not all of the relationships or virginity stories are budding appropriate romances if you catch my drift.

What catches my attention is that if bothers YOU so you have to deal with your conscious, which to me is begging you to at least discuss it with you soon to be husband. I don’t think he is thinking what your thinking, but its important you guys communicate and that you feel confident. Also if you feel you have been manipulated, raped, abused or whatever in the past regarding sexual things, definitely check in with a counselor if you haven’t already!

Post # 9
4275 posts
Honey bee
  • Wedding: April 2012

I don’t see how he could be hurt by this. It was something unfortunate that happened to you and anybody would understand why you wouldn’t want to talk about it.

I think on your own time you should talk to him about it, it might be nice to just let it all out to a supportive ear.

Post # 10
11356 posts
Sugar Beekeeper
  • Wedding: May 2009

I am so sorry that all of that happened to you. It’s terrible. 🙁 

I am all about honesty, and I have no tolerance for lying. However, you have not lied to your Fiance about this. You told him the truth — that you lost your virginity at the age of 14. That was not a lie.  Also, your Fiance has already told you that he did not want to hear details regarding your sexual history.

I talked with my Darling Husband about this situation to get his perspective before I posted my comments, as he is a pastor who often counsels people.  He thinks that it may be best for you to deal with both of these issues in a counseling setting instead of attempting to have a catharsis through unburdening yourself directly to your Fiance at this time. Then, if your counselor thinks that there is a need for you to address these issues with your Fiance in the future, he or she could help you to do that.

Post # 11
10 posts
  • Wedding: February 2012

I would recommend having a conversation with him about it- you can even preface it with you telling him that you know he’s not interested in details, but you think it’s important for him to be aware of aspects of what happened. i have a very, very dear friend who experienced some sexual abuse and it negatively impacted her marriage because she never told her husband about it. now they’ve cleared the air and their relationship is a lot healthier for it. i know it’s intimidating, but your fiance loves you very much and he won’t think less of you.

Post # 12
120 posts
Blushing bee
  • Wedding: October 2013

I don’t see why you think you’ve lied. It is very difficult for a man to think about his woman being with someone else, so I wouldn’t force the details on him if he hasn’t asked for it. You have to think about his feelings. It is the past and its not negatively affecting you, so I don’t see what you have to get off your chest.

If you absolutely must, maybe you can pry to find out if he’d like to know more about your past – but bring it up in an indirect way.

Post # 13
192 posts
Blushing bee
  • Wedding: April 2013 - ceremony at a gazebo outside, reception at neighboring restaurant on a lake

My fiance was very supportive when I told him about my sexual past and I think your fiance would be the same way.  No guy likes to hear that something like that has happened to their significant other but I think that rarely makes a guy look at a girl as damaged.  Typically, the guys that think girls are damaged are the 15 year old immature guys wanting to “pop everyone’s cherry”.

Counseling helped me a lot, and I still have issues that I am dealing with related to my sexual assault when I was 15.  It doesn’t acutely affect my sexual relationship with my fiance, but sometimes I have trouble getting ready to go someplace.  He used to get really mad at me because it took so long for me to get ready sometimes and he couldn’t understand why I was 45 minutes late sometimes.  I finally explained to him that it is what I call my “whore complex”.  If I look in the mirror too much and start thinking my clothes show off my body too much then I feel slutty in everything even if I change into baggy jeans and a t-shirt.  Then I find it really difficult to go out in public at all.  It doesn’t happen often, but he needed to understand where these “flare-ups” were coming from so he could help me pick out an outfit, help me feel protected, and cut me some slack for making us late.

With my ex (we had started dating when I was 21) I had trouble even letting him lay on top sometimes without going into a panic.  But that trouble completely went away about 2 yrs into that relationship and has never been a problem with my fiance.

If you have any issues like this I think you should tell your fiance.  You don’t have to give all the details, just let him know that when you were 14, it was within your will, but that it was sexual coersion/persuasion and that looking back your realize that person took advantage of you.  Tell him that’s all you feel like sharing and that was hard enough to share as it is and that you will try to share more if he wants you to after you work on it through counseling.  If you don’t have issues affecting the relationship, I think you should start with the counselor and tell your fiance when you feel OK about it. 

I was “consenting” at 15 also.  But in my head I was thinking: “I love him and he loves me so this is what we do, right?  I don’t like the way that feels, I feel violated.  I don’t want him to do that.  I can’t say anything because we are in love and it makes him happy.”  Took me until college volunteering for a rape crisis center before I learned that that classified as assault!!  I should’ve realized it sooner because that guy apologized to me multiple times over the following years, and told me about how he had been molested, so he obviously knew I didn’t want to do that stuff.

I really encourage you to do counseling.  Maybe it is even affecting you in ways you don’t realize?

Good luck to you, XOXOXOXOXO!

Post # 15
192 posts
Blushing bee
  • Wedding: April 2013 - ceremony at a gazebo outside, reception at neighboring restaurant on a lake

I was scared too.  But the more you talk about it the better it gets in my experience.  But you will have to take it at your own pace.

Post # 16
868 posts
Busy bee
  • Wedding: November 2011

I think that if this is something that profoundly affects your day to day life, then you should share it with him. 

I don’t even think my husband knows about how I lost my virginity…mostly because it wasn;t all that special!

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