I think i know exactly how you feel. I ordered my dress from an online store, when it arrived i totally loved it and it fits perfectly. Then after a while i didn´t like it anymore, thinking of it made me sad, because it´s not a real wedding dress. I found so many pictures of dresses i thought i would love more, i was even thinking of ordering a cheap gown from China. Then i tried it on again, and realized again that it is a sweet dress, it just needs some changes. I will add some flowers or whatever, haven´t decided yet.
I totally love planning my wedding, planning cute little details and surpises for my Fiance. I finally found a great photographer, i am so excited to work with her, and can´t wait for the wedding day. However, when i look into the mirror wearing my dress, i like what i see: a women wearing a pretty dress. But i don´t see a bride. Strange…
I have a theory about that, i guess it is because currently I do not like myself. I have been sitting at home for the last four weeks doing just nothing, because my company filed for bankruptcy, and now i am forced to wait how things will develop, and if i can go back to work or not. That makes me really sad, because i love my work, and the company. I am eating unhealthy crap all day, at least i am not gaining weight, but i just do not feel comfortable with my body, my skin is pale and i look so tired every day, even though i get enough sleep. I do not like my hair and can´t decide on a new hair cut or color. I just do not like what i see in the mirror and i know i should change something, or at least do some sports or yoga, but i am just too lazy :))
Then my Fiance is working really hard, he has started a new job, and when he comes i am like “hey lets do something nice” because i am so bored, but he is very tired and has to go to bed early. So currently things are not “normal” here, like they used to be.
Maybe there is something that you do not like about yourself as well, that makes you feel like not being a bride. Maybe it´s because we have a long wait until the wedding day. Actually i do not know the answer, but i am pretty sure we will start feeling like brides when the big day is near!