- 8 years ago
- Wedding: September 2012
During the last week of September, I had an awful cold. I got chased home from work with cans of Lysol. I took it easy, did the chicken soup/juice bit, and felt pretty good by the weekend.
First week of October, I got an awful sinus infection. Work called my FH, and ordered him to take me to the urgent care clinic, or they’d do it for him. Went home with more chicken soup, juice, cough syrup, Advil, and antibiotics. A lovely week and a half of all that, and I nearly missed the last day of my seasonal job because of it.
About 3 days after I was well over that, and had finished all my meds, I came down with yet another cold. It started to get pretty old at that point. Didn’t last too long, but really screwed up my ears. I honestly think these colds have altered my ears (not hearing, but otherwise).
A couple days before Halloween I started getting a sore throat. Ended up missing the Girl Scout Halloween party I had helped plan (luckily, the other leaders were able to handle it). Felt better the next day, briefly went to another party I was invited to. Early-dark-thirty the morning after Halloween, my stomach violently emptied itself of a dinner I’d had many times before, and the rest of the day was spent barely nibbling on things, very dazed, trying to recover without triggering another episode.
I still have the damned sore throat from the most recent issue, occasionally screaming headache, and extremely unpredictable appetite. I’ve just stopped complaining about my ears hurting, that’s pretty much a given most of the time now.
FH has a few theories. We have a 30-ish year old house that we’ve been fixing up. We got new windows installed in mid-August, and he thinks I’m possibly getting sick from old germs of previous owners that are now completely trapped because the house is much better sealed. We cleaned the heck out of the place before we moved in, so I’m doubtful. Or, he thinks my immune system just can’t get an edge for some reason, and can’t quite get me back up to par before the next bug comes along. I don’t even have any theories. I’m just seriously tired at this point. I have no idea where I’m getting these bugs from (each episode feels like a different illness, symptom-wise), because I rarely leave the house anymore.
I’m so sick of being sick!! I can’t ride my scooter (big part of my life–I love that scooter almost as much as FH), I can’t go out anywhere, I can’t run errands. I can’t do the few things I’m obligated to do even though I’m currently unemployed, and I can’t do a lot of great job hunting for that matter, either. I’m tired of drinking entire dang bottles of cough syrup and swallowing Advil every several hours to ease the pain in my ears (I’ve totally stopped taking OTC meds unless it gets bad enough to make me cry). I can’t get up and exercise to loose weight and get healthier because I’m too dang tired, and I can’t even go out and enjoy the nice fall weather. I feel like a stinking prisoner. I’m even starting to get bored with drinking juice and water all day. I don’t even care about wedding planning much right now. I’m afraid anything I touch will make someone else sick, so why should I be working on stuff for a party?
I get occasional colds and whatnot just like everybody else, but this is just bloody rediculous. This has never happened to me, or anyone I know, before. It’s just cold after cold after virus after cold. We really don’t have the $$ to go to the doctor. The one visit for the sinus infection saw us drop $200 in under 2 hours (visit, plus required aftercare supplies). I don’t have insurance, and the accident plan I have through FH’s work doesn’t really cover anything that doesn’t land me in the ER. We’re really short on cash right now because I can’t go to a job interview, much less work, so I flat out cannot afford to go see a doctor.
Sorry, guess I just needed somewhere to rant about this. Anybody have any wild suggestions my sicky brain can’t see? What the hell is wrong with me? I feel like an animal that should have been put down a week ago.