- 7 years ago
- Wedding: July 2010
I have been miserable.
Its been a trial of errors and it has nothing to do with my husband. But im so sad and down about it and am honestly one breath away from a complete mental breakdown.
Right after the wedding we went on a short mini moon to a place about 8 hours from our home. It was glorious, and one of the happiest 4 days of my life. When we got back DH was doing a side job that was incomplete and had to finish it. So the first week of marriage i was either home alone or sitting at his side job watching him work while writing all the thank you cards. Its not the way I pictured right after my wedding. Dont get me wrong, im happy he did they job as all his student loans are paid off now (yeah)
Two weeks after the wedding my sister called off her wedding, she had made my planning a living hell taking away the spotlight (even though her wedding was not till July 2011), all hell broke loose within my family and i spent many nights crying as i got upset phone calls from both my parents and had my sister crying on the front door step. I felt like all my happiness and wedding bliss waas stolen from me,
Later that month my other sisters boyfriend cheated on her and after much crying, fighting and tears they got back together, she got pregnant and they got an abortion. I spend those few weeks being the shoulder for my very upset parents and my poor sister.
Then comes x-mas. We are spending it in my hometown with my parents so DH’s family decides to go to mexico. They pay for DH’s siblings to go to mexico and they gave us slippers (right after i told them thats what MY mother got DH!!!) Darling Husband asked for his dad to bring him back some tequila, he did…8 bottles!! and wouldnt give one to his own son. 🙁 They didnt even acknowledge it was out first xmas together and i was crushed. My parents on the other hand were great. but new years fell apart when my sister and her boyfriend fought everynight in the house and my other sister (who only 8 weeks ago left her fiance) announces she is dating another guy and they are going to mexico together for a week. New years eve crap hits the fan and my one sister with the boyfriend is no longer talking to the family. I havent heard from her since that night.
Now its February, and on the 5th we get an email from our landlord saying her wants us out by March 5…i didnt know my rights as a tenant so i cried for a whole day until i talked to someone. WE want to try and get out by March 1 anyways since we are going on our honeymoon in June, but its hard…we have looked for a whole week now and have found nothing. Im not exaggerating when i say i cry every freakin night. And poor Darling Husband who doesnt get stressed about anything has come to the conclusion that he has an ulcer. hHis “friends” conviently put on facebook that we are dinks (double income no kids) so we should just save more and spend less. Such a narrowminded and simple solution to something complex (we live in Vancouver, one of the most expensive cities in the world, in 1.5 years we just paid 5000 for our wedding, 5000 to pay off his student loans (He has a BA in Science) and 5000 towards our honeymoon) I think we are doing okay. Just frustrating (they had half their house paid for, all their renovations paid for and all their trips paid for by family….)
It just seems since we got married everything has been really awful, and i know its not our marriage thats bad, we love each other to death. but all this stress has a tole. I feel like we havent had fun, i cant remember the last time i had a good laught with him…or sex 🙁 Its just awful. We dont celebrate V-day but i think we are going to make that day a “no looking for places to rent or talk about us living on the streets day” as its just to much right now.
If you have read all this thank you. I think i just need to vent and let it all out….