- 9 years ago
- Wedding: November 2013
I have not been officially diagnosed with PCOS but I have other health issues as well. I have most of the “symptoms” hair growth(toes, neck, belly) I have insulin resistance (darkening on my neck), I’ve never had a “regular” period since I officially started when I was 12. I suffered miserably through middle and high school never really getting anything checked out, my mom always said her sister had the same problem and heavy bleeding was normal.. HA! my bleeding would last for months and *Sorry TMI* but even pads wouldn’t help, I remember crying and keeping my coat wrapped around my waist because I bled through my pants. *sigh*
Well, when I was around 18/19 I was put on BC and I loved it! I finally had a regular period!! For years I just thought it was normal, never thought about it, I told every Gyno I ever went to about my periods. My very first one I went to just flat out told me because I’m overweight I would never have children, I started crying on the spot my mother was SO upset. She called the doctor a quack! So I’ve been brainwashed that I just know it won’t happen or it will be such a hard battle. It’s like I have no hope or I don’t want to get my hopes up.
When I met my SO he was so great, so optimistic, he said it will happen and then even blamed it on him saying maybe he can’t have children. I said I don’t think so hehe The thing is we talked about it and I have it in my head it will take months if not years so I’m prepairing myself and I’m 28 and hes 36 so I’ve been worried. I just don’t want to add any more risk’s as myself and SO get older.
Another concern is going off BC, I was off it 3 years ago and things went smoothly for a few months then I blew up.. My skin started peeling and hair loss and constant cramping which led into bleeding for 3 months. I’m so scared to stop 🙁
My plan is I’m going back to the doctor and I’m going to be put back on Metformin (which I was on for almost a year and I still had sudden onsets of diarrhea and cramping) I thought that was suppose to stop? On it though I didn’t notice any weight loss but I was still on BC. I want to take the summer to try and loose weight and then hopefully start TTC in the fall.
I’m sorry for such a long post but either my friends have kids and never had any issues or there not planning on having kids anytime soon and I’m positive none of my friends have PCOS or infertility issues. I also lost my mother a few years ago so I don’t really have anyone to cry to or just complain. I’m also not telling anyone were trying. You guys are my beehive away from home 🙂
Thanks so much for listening to me vent