Post # 1
Thought I’d be cool. A friend of mine got married a couple years ago but because we were separated by distance I wasn’t incredibly involved. No problem. Another one of my friends got engaged last year. No problem. Another just got married this April. I was a little more involved in this one because we live in the same state. Again. NO problem.
Another one of my friends is getting married next April and today I went with her to help her find her dress (which by the way was a huge success. 🙂 She looks absolutely beautiful in it!) I’ve never reacted adversely to other people getting married before. NEVER. I am so happy for her and felt fine and was having fun the entire appointment.
I get home and it’s like a brick wall hit me. I feel terrible. I felt sad the second I walked in the door. Don’t know what’s wrong with me. I’ve always known logically that I wanted to get married but I never had one of those sad, I want that for myself, emotional moments. Whew. It’s weird. My heart actually feels heavy, if that makes any sense.
I just wanted to say it out loud. Sometimes the second I get it out I forget about it. It’s cathartic. 🙂 Hoping my current theory of September comes true. My guy just got a new job and the new job came with a big raise so here’s to hoping. 🙂
Post # 3
*Hugs* Your special time will come. Sorry you feel low. It does take strength to do what you did and support your friend – I remember it well. x
Post # 4
This feeling is so familiar to me right now. It’s so hard, and the last thing I want to do is convey these feelings to my Boyfriend or Best Friend because I don’t want him to feel like I’m not happy with him. It’s not that we’re unhappy, we’re just SO happy that we’re ready to take that step. I wish you so much luck for your hopes of September! <3
Post # 5
awww nothing is wrong with you…. I know exactly how you feel but it’s really nice that you are supportive to your friends. when your special time comes they would support you as you have them…
Post # 6
Your really brave, but your doing it for your friends – just keep thinking that one day, they will be helping YOU try on YOUR wedding dress. I would use this as a talking point for your partner.. don’t go into detail, but bringing up that your friends should at least give him a nudge about talking about weddings etc..
Post # 8
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It definitely is hard, and I know exactly how you feel!
Post # 9
Thanks guys. Pizza and a few hours of tv has helped. 🙂 I think I’m thrown off by the fact that I had any reaction at all. There’s a first for everything I suppose but I thought I was going to make it through with some kind of crazy depression immunity. I’m afraid its starting to catch up with me.The only reason I’m guessing September is because he doesn’t plan…anything…ever. And he’s suggested I wait till September to get my cat (I didn’t, because why wait). He suggested we take a vacation in September. He even went so far as to search a travel site in front of me, which NEVER happens (I’ve researched and planned and booked our last 2 vacations). There has been a recent large transfer made between his accounts which was completely out of character for him.
Hyper-analyzing? Hellz yes. But when there are no answers sometimes all you’re left with is a little craziness. 🙂
Post # 10
i definitely know how you feel. i just dealt with that myself. i was a bridesmaid in a friend’s wedding earlier this month and i helped her find her dress [on the first day of shopping!], tried on bridesmaids dresses with her, helped with last minute projects the day before the wedding, helped her get ready the day of but i didn’t get that wistful, wish it was my turn until we were on the way to the church for pictures. thank goodness for dark sunglasses, you know?
i was genuinely happy for her but sometimes it just hits me weird. but you know, i know my time will come so i try not to dwell on the gut punches. glad you overcame yours!