- 4 years ago
- Wedding: June 2013
I’m having my gall bladder taken out on May 31st. It’s a really simple surgery, but my cousin just passed away this December after going in for surgery. She got septic and went into a coma. So I’m a little twitchy about going under the knife.
I just started an amazing job that I love. My wedding is next month. We’re going to be buying a home and starting a family all within the next year. I know it’s morbid, and probably stupidly irrational, but part of me is terrified that with all that’s going right in my life..the universe is going to do something awful to me to balance the scales.
I guess I have issues feeling like I deserve happiness, so when good things come in my life I’m always fearful it will be taken away once the universe realizes how unworthy I am.
I don’t need any advice really, I just wanted to get that off my chest and maybe see if anyone else is nuts like me 🙂