Post # 1
After having a mc in early December, I just got a (faint) BFP yesterday at 10 DPO. I’m excited and hopeful — this one already feels different, but I definitely have mixed emotions. After debating how to tell DH and not wanting to jinx anyting, I broke down and went to Babies R Us to get a “I’m as Awesome as My Daddy” onsie. It was very happy/sad, and though were were TTC, it’s still strange that it happened so fast. Is anyone else going through this?
I actually have a theme song for this pregnancy — Ella Fitzgerald singing Cole Porter’s “I Am in Love“.
“Conflicting questions rise around in my brain:
Should I order cyanide or order champagne?
…I am in love” 🙂
Post # 3
- Wedding: September 2015 - Historic Chapel
I know exactly how u feel. I also had a miscarriage, back in May at 11wks, so when I found out I was pregnant again in August I almost had a heart attack. I honestly couldn’t believe it!!! and I was so torn on whether to tell or not, with the miscarriage pregnancy I told everyone right away, so with this one I wanted to shout it out but at the same time was so scared it would end up in miscarriage again. I decided to tell my mom the same day I found out, so I could have someone to share my emotions with. Also I decided not to tell my FI, I didn’t want to get his hopes up, at the end I couldn’t hold it in and just told him that same day after work! Now I’m 30wks pregnant and it has been wonderful!!!
Congrats on your news and enjoy it!!!!
Post # 4
Congratulations to you!!!
Many moons ago, I was pregnant for the first time, and had a m/c at 8 weeks, literally the next month we were pregnant again, it was very surreal. I know the fears you’re going through but try to enjoy this pregnancy and just take it one day at a time!! Good luck!!
Post # 5
I am nearly 27 weeks pregnant after 2 miscarriages. The first trimester was a scary and stressful place! My excitement came in phases as I passed each milestone. Try and enjoy this time! I really wish I could have worried less. Congrats!
Post # 6
@4littlekitties: I’m delighted that you’ve set up this thread. Hopefully we’ll all be over to join you soon. Congrats again xxx
Post # 7
Sorry for the slow response — I didn’t have notifications set up. After my MC, I looked up the last Journeys of TTC after MC (#3), and the post started of with a bunch of photos of positive HPTs. Not what I wanted to see. I was on Journeys #4 and suggested that we start a seperate thread it can still be a safe place for the ladies who are struggling there.
Already, I feel more connected to this pregnancy, but at the same time I check the paper everytime I wipe and keep squeezing my boobs at my desk when no one’s looking at work to see if they feel different. It’s only been a month or so, and the few people I’ve told have had very guarded reactions. It’s so confusing, and part of me feels like I was never un-pregnant. I’m happy for this pregnancy, but I think I’m still grieving the last one.
We have a big convention for work next month in Florida, and I’ll have to get up at 5-6 am and work through the evening on my feet. God willing, I’ll be 7-8 weeks along at that time. I spoke to a co-worker, and she recommends that I tell my boss ASAP. I don’t want to tell her a) because it’s so early & would rather go through a chemical/mc privately (worst case) and b) I feel like I’ll be judged for getting pregnant so fast. I took a ton of time off last month, and they gave me three days of berevement.
So, I’m really excited, but I feel like I shouldn’t be super excited out of self-preservation or worrying about people’s reactions. I can’t wait for the first, “Everything happens for a reason.”
Post # 8
@4littlekitties: The pregnancy that I just lost, I felt like I shouldn’t be excited for self preservation too… But when I lost the baby, I realized that pretending like I wasn’t excited didn’t make the loss any easier…. It just made me miss out on being able to enjoy the time that I was pregnant. So be really excited!! It is really exciting!!! You are pregnant and that is so awesome.
And I also worry about my bosses being judgmental if I manage to get pregnant again soon, since I’m taking some time off work right now… But at the end of the day, it’s like, tough. You’ve got to do you, you know?