- 2 years ago
- Wedding: September 2020
To make this very clear I do not feel attractive anymore and it shows. None of my feelings come from him, he still compliments me all of the time, wants to touch me and hold me and tells me how much he loves me and my little belly but I hate it. I look in the mirror and feel gross. Twice now he’s touched my stomach when I was sitting down and I got so uncomfortable I cried, TWICE. I am not as confident when we’re intimate because I don’t want him to see me anymore because of how I feel. I think it’s perfectly reasonable that he feels less attracted to me now because of these things than before when I was super confident. What I thought was really nice was that the attraction is based on my CONFIDENCE not really my weight. I’m the one who thought that losing weight will make ME more confident which will help the problems, then I realized the best solution is to work on fixing my confidence now instead of the mentality of thin=confident.
He even told me in the same conversation he loves me more now than he did when I was smaller because he knows me better now and that he’s more attracted to me in different ways than when I was smaller because of our deeper emotional connection. Some of the attraction loss is because of the weight gain but like just a little bit and even that is not unfair in my books, I’ve gained 30+ pounds, I look and act differently he’s not a jerk.