Post # 1
Self pitying thread alert!!!
Bees I’m so sad. I found out last week I’d miscarried our first, and I had a D&C on Monday. I went back to work on Wednesday and Thursday but was struggling with the pain so took Friday off.
Today is my cousin’s little boy’s christening. I adore him and was meant to be his godmother. I took it really easy yesterday, even cancelled lunch with a friend, so I’d be ok for today and I was feeling a lot better, but I suddenly developed the worst stomach upset before bed last night, and can’t risk the 2 hour journey each way, with London traffic, today feeling like this. The antibiotics I’m on apparently react with Imodium so I can’t take that to help. I can’t stop crying, which is probably just my hormones getting back to normal. My cousin had already told me not to push myself to come, and that I’d always be his son’s godmother even without being at the service, but I feel like I’ve let them down. I was so looking forward to seeing all the little ones in our family, and now I’m stuck at home while they all have a lovely day together.
DH says we’ll plan a trip to go see them in a few weeks, but I’m still so sad. I’m so ready to get back to normal.
I know it sounds silly, but thanks for letting me vent!
Post # 2
Oh bee, I’m so sorry. A pity party is absolutely okay given what you’re going through. I don’t have much advice except to look after yourself and listen to your DH and your cousin – it will be okay, and you will probably feel better after your hormones have settled.
Sending lots of love and light to you and your husband. ❤️
Post # 4
I’m really sorry! This really sucks! 🙁 Get well soon!
Post # 5
I’m so sorry for your loss 🙁 of course it’s understandable you can’t be there, your body is still recovering and everything is still so fresh and raw. You haven’t let anyone down – the people in your life love you and just want you to feel better. Hugs!
Post # 6
That really sucks 🙁 I live off Imodium so I understand what you’re going through as far as the stomach upset, but the rest…I’m so sorry bee. You’ve had a tough break
Post # 7
I’m so sorry. It’s not fair. You can throw yourself the biggest pity party you want. I hope you feel better and get your rainbow baby real soon! Treat yourself to some pampering. You deserve it
Post # 8
I’m so sorry! I’m also glad your cousin is understanding. Take care of you right now. I know that we typically see it as a weakness to take care of ourselves first, but you need to heal physically and emotionally.
Post # 9
Thanks everyone. This is a much longer process than I thought. Managed to get out for an hour with DH to get some lunch, so at least the entire weekend wasn’t wasted!