- 6 years ago
- Wedding: May 2014
so ive always struggled with social anxiety, even when i was young, its escalated a bit more over the years and i finally went to see a psych who officially diagnosed me last year as being Bipolar 2 as well as having Social Phobia! i definitely didnt see that coming but ive come to terms with both diagnosis and agree with her asessment now.
i do take meds that take the edge off the anxiety a bit but not entirely, since Fiance and I got engaged instead of focusing on the fun things we’ll plan together my biggest concern is interacting with vendors, having the spotlight on me during our wedding, having to say our vows, dancing etc.
it almost made me want to go to the courthouse and skip the wedding altogether, but my mom would be devastated. im the only 1 out of her 3 children to ever marry, so shes looking forward to being the mother of the bride :/
it kinda puts me in a tough spot, i do want a wedding but the things i will have to do to have it freaks me out. anyone else here have anxiety?