(Closed) soooo disappointed in myself (weight rant) (long)

posted 5 years ago in Fitness
Post # 3
1283 posts
Bumble bee
  • Wedding: October 2017 - Baton Rouge, LA

girl- i have been there. I am a habitual yo-yo dieter. Since 2008 I’ve gone from a size 14, to a 10, to a 14, to a 8, to a 16, and now i’m back in 10’s. It seriously took me putting my mind to changing. It is 100% a mental challenge to be healthy. I’m not sure where you live, but where I am, everything revolves around food. Really really good delicious food at that lol But I turned 25 this year & knew it was now or never. I told myself (at 220lb) over and over that I was happy. I loved food, my SO loved me, and it didnt matter how much I weighed. But i was constatntly gaining & then it just hit me. It’s time to do something. So i’ve done it. As of today, I’m down 67.2lb since May 20th. A lot of people would say this is an unhealthy way of losing weight. But for me, I just wanted the weight off so I can have a clean slate & start being healthy. I’ve been doing the Ideal Protien plan with alternative foods (aka protein bars from walmart). I have an email I circulate with the plan info & my tips & tricks. I would be happy to send it to you if you PM me your email address.

Being healthy is a life choice. The time to choose it is now. You can do it 🙂

Post # 4
1285 posts
Bumble bee

Sorry to be blunt and, but You need self control, will power.  Stop with the soda’s. That’s not a healthy alternative to liquid intake on a daily basis. That stuff is loaded with sugar, drinking soda considered “diet” isn’t helping either. It just as unhealthy as regular soda.  


I know it’s hard. I ate and drank the same way, found out I was diabetic and had to cut out a lot of stuff from my every day diet.  Stopping soda’s, cakes, cookies, candy, pies…foods I loved, to get healthy again, was HARD. The hardest thing ever. But you know what was the hardest part? The first 2 weeks.  Cut out sugar/carbs for 2 weeks and replace it with water. Give yourself 2 weeks of that, the craving will be gone.  


If you want to lose weight, you’ll find the will power and self control to do it. 


ETA: when I found out I was diabetic, I was 172 pounds, size 12 —> I went down to 118 pounds, size 0.   If I can do it, anyone can.


Post # 5
230 posts
Helper bee
  • Wedding: June 2015

You have this one beautiful life to live, why be anything but happy? If you know eating more healthy and being active will contribute to happiness why not do it? I am 5’5 and one day found myself at 180 pounds, and I was shocked. I have an hourglass shape but was always in a healthy weight range. I was unhappy being overweight so I stopped eating junk and began exercising. The weight came off slowly, but I was SO much happier. My mood was better, I had more energy, and I felt great about myself. If you truly want this, you will find a way.

Post # 6
3726 posts
Sugar bee
  • Wedding: September 2014

@habibti:  Go to your support groups, contact your dietician, see a counselor and start exercising. YOU CAN DO THIS!

Post # 7
18637 posts
Honey Beekeeper
  • Wedding: June 2009

I know it’s hard but I think it’s time for a home pantry makeover for all of you (including the kids). If you can’t control yourself around the bad stuff in your house, it’s time to make that stuff scarce. Plus substituting poptarts and sugary cereal with healthier snacks and meals for the kids will set them up for a lifetime of good habits.

I don’t keep junk in the house if I think I’m going to eat it. I also don’t have cash on me at work so I can’t go to the vending machine for a candy bar or a soda.

Good luck and you can do it!

Post # 8
611 posts
Busy bee
  • Wedding: June 2014

@habibti:  do you notice when you start eating badly and when you don’t?

ive come to terms with my emotional eating. I eat when I am happy and don’t when I am sad. Rarely am I sad so that sucks for me.

Post # 9
168 posts
Blushing bee
  • Wedding: July 2014

I understand! I haven’t struggled as much as you but I started at 210 and am now hovering around 165 after being down to 154 and I know my healthiest weight is lower. So frustrating! 

As far as snacks and soda.. I was right there with you! I have no self-control when it comes to sugary snacks, so now I can’t buy them anymore – it’s the only thing that works for me. I finally gave up soda after forcing myself to read about the problems it would cause for my teeth and my overall health. The first three weeks were a struggle (every time someone opened a can my mouth would water), but I haven’t had soda in almost a year and I really feel so much better. Plus, water is free so that saves money 🙂


Good luck! I know it’s hard and it’s so easy to be disappointed and upset with yourself, but there is part of you that is motivated to make a change and that is so good! Keep it up.

Post # 10
2023 posts
Buzzing bee
  • Wedding: September 2013

@habibti:  Seriously if you cut out the soda you will lose 10lbs in a month. No lie.  Not 10lbs a month just 10 lbs the first month. Its hard to diet and stick to the diet when you dont see your body or scale changing. I totally understand, that has always been my problem.  Try doing a diet for 1 full week.  Then have a cheat 3 days, then diet again.  That way you can still eat what you want and not miss things so that you stop the diet thing.  Also exercise 10 mins a day if you can.  There are a lot of 5-7-10 min workout apps you can download. 

Post # 11
454 posts
Helper bee
  • Wedding: October 2013

I am so sorry that you feel badly. I am tiny – 5 feet – and I have struggled with my weight my whole entire life, so I can truly empathize with the feelings of sadness, failure, unworthiness, etc. Please believe me when I say that you are so, so lucky to have height on your side… Count that in the positive column.

That being said, you lost 130 pounds! So, that is a positive, as well. You also are fortunate enough to understand how you felt at a healthy weight. It does feel good, doesn’t it? Positive #3. 

Now, for the challenges. #1 – over two years, you have gained a fair portion back – and yes, it will take some effort, and discipline, to drop that again. #2 – based on your post, you are addicted (I don’t mean it in a bad way, just a fact) to sugary sodas and treats. #3 – you feel guilty, feel bad, and say *!$? it, I’m fat anyway, it’s too hard, so why should I care what I eat”.

Here’s the thing. You should care because you aren’t happy.

So, that being said, what can you do about it?

Determine that you want to make some changes. As PPs have suggested, cut out soda, and give your pantry an overhaul. Do NOT buy that stuff. I would also recommend reducing the amount of carbs you bring into your family’s diet. Really take a look at your meal planning – and, to the best of your ability, sub out 50% (or more, if you can) of your carbs. The key here is to reframe what food means to you – it does not mean starve or completely deprive yourself. What it does mean is learning a new way of looking at food. I eat vegetables and greek yougurt (not together!) for breakfast five days a week. Do I love it? Hell effing no. Well, the yogurt is nummy, but raw veggies? Uh, yeah. Not exactly my first choice. But it is the choice I am making because it is healthier than those which I may have made previously.

One trick I play with myself is this: if I have a craving – like, I really want some chips in the afgternoon, or a chocolate donut in the morning – I tell myself that I can have it tomorrow. And then, if I still want it the next day, well, I have it. Sometimes, the craving will go away, sometimes, I will play the game again and stretch it another day or two, and sometimes, I will just have the damn donut! But what this does is prove to myself that a) I DO have the will power and self control if I need to and b) that I can occasionally have a treat or a cheat and it won’t kill me.

This post is already pretty long. Please PM me if you want some more suggestions?

Big hugs. : )


Post # 12
454 posts
Helper bee
  • Wedding: October 2013

One more point. Entreaty, in fact.

You didn’t mention how old your kids are – or whether they are eating the same type of stuff.

Please, please – as a PP said – for your kids, PLEASE show them a different way to navigate their food choices? Please don’t set them up for a lifetime of struggle with cravings for sugar and other crap…

I grew up in a house with a mom who always struggled with her weight – yet the pantry was full of chips and snacks and hostess cakes and soda. She would bring us to McDonalds and then admonish me to eat my burger with no bun and no “red lead” (i.e., ketchup) – because I didn’t need it. WTF?? The messages surrounding food in my home were horrendous. And then I was shamed for being fat. Thanks, Mom and Dad.

I know it’s hard on a limited budget. Good food is not inexpensive. It is a crime that the stuff that is affordable is laden with sugar and carbs and corn syrup. But with some research and planning, I am confident that you can turn it around – for you and your family.

Post # 13
11747 posts
Sugar Beekeeper
  • Wedding: November 1999

I’m sorry if this is harsh but at some point there’s nothing you can do except exercise some will power and not put into your body what it wants, but instead what it needs (water not coke, healthy food not junk). 

Start small – cut your consumption of coke down to 1-2/day. Everything in moderation.  Don’t keep processed foods around the house. Meal plan on the weekend and cut up fruits/veggies into single servings for the week so you can quickly grab them and go. Make time to work out, not excuses for why you can’t.  Even if it’s 2 15 minute walks a day, it’s better than nothing!  Take a walk on your lunch break, or wake up 15 minutes early and do a little workout, then do another short one before bed.  

Post # 14
9181 posts
Buzzing Beekeeper
  • Wedding: August 2013 - Rocky Mountains USA

The BEST thing you can do for yourself is just not to buy any of that junk.  If it’s not at your house, you will eat much less of it.  Just DO NOT put it in your grocery cart!  Your whole family will be better off without it at your house.  (I’m sure your kids are probably learning from you what tastes good to eat, right?)

Good luck 🙂

Post # 15
5660 posts
Bee Keeper
  • Wedding: August 2012

I heard an interesting, and true, little blurb on the radio this morning. It’s that when we use positive reinforcement to avoid eating unhealthy foods, we are more successful than if we use negative thoughts. So instead of, I can’t believe I”m going to eat this cheeseburger, I suck, i feel so bad about myself and i’m gonna eat it anyway, you would tell yourself how proud of yourself you’ll be when you DON”T eat it, or when you have a glass of water instead of another coke. “I’m going to be so stinking proud of myself if I can pass this craving and not eat that cheeseburger”. And you will, I promise. 

Obviously, this isn’t a cure all or a quick fix, but I thought it was interesting and since I heard it today, thought I’d share. It’s hard to maintain self control, trust me, even small people have a hard time with it! 

Post # 16
1724 posts
Bumble bee
  • Wedding: March 1998

I’m kind of disgusted with some of the responses you’re receiving. I’m slightly shorter than you are and 10 or so pounds heavier than you are. The pervasive attitude some seem to have is appalling. I do not have high blood sugar (80 fasting, 4.2% on A1C, booyah); I do not have high cholesterol (when I was a meat eater, it was 160 – so I can’t imagine now); I do not have high blood pressure (75/115). You can be healthy and you can be heavier.

Being overweight is a risk factor for other conditions. It’s amazing how we can understand that with various other illnesses, but with someone who is overweight (you are not obese, btw, OP), it seems to automatically jump to, “You’re going to get diabetes!” A small portion of the population has it anyway; while more overweight people DO have it, that may coincide more with lifestyle habits than actual weight.

I’m living proof of it. And no doubt about it – I am fat. I have worked on my weight my entire life, and like you, I was once 300 pounds. I lost 60 pounds. I regained 50 of it. I lost it all again, plus an extra 30 pounds. I regained 20.

And this is a very common theme for anyone who loses weight. Odds are you will gain and lose…multiple times.

I made a decision recently…that I’m going to do what I can to have a healthy body. Lately, that’s an effort to maintain my weight. I focus on doing exercises I enjoy because I enjoy them – not because they will burn calories. I try to eat healthy because, well, I don’t want to get plugged up. I have made a conscious shift away from losing weight. I’ve lost weight for that sole purpose – it’s rare I’m successful for long.

Please don’t listen to the people who came here expressly to judge you or to tell you what you already know (i.e., “It’s bad to drink X,” which you already acknowledged in your opening post). The only thing I can tell you is that finding appealing substitutes worked for me. I’m a big fan of Adagio teas, so I’ll order something new off of there and put a little sugar in it. I love wine, so I started purchasing it in smaller bottles and going for the slighty drier stuff, which is lower calorie. And I’m a pop lover – I admit it.

I’d like to lose about 50 pounds or so myself still, OP. I’m always willing to talk if you’d like – I know the struggle, and it’s one easily overlooked by people who have always been thin. I don’t say that to suggest that they didn’t have to work at it – certainly, they do. But the bodies of the obese/overweight-and-formerly-so do work differently than those who have always been thin, and that’s a point often ignored or overlooked. The struggle is going to be different between those groups of people.


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