- 8 years ago
- Wedding: April 2013
I’m feeling overwhelmed and exhausted tonight, and frankly, I just need to vent.
My fiance and I got engaged a little over 2 months ago. Until now, everything has been so blissful and exciting, but this last week has been a stress overload. Between our work, planning a wedding, having just purchased a new home that is undergoing renovations, and preparing for our move, I am officially worn out. On top of that, my fiance decides to tell me last night that he and his brother are going to start training for a full triathlon that will take place in January (3 months before our wedding).
Typically, I would fully support and encourage him. I just feel like the timing couldn’t be worse. We already have so much on our plates right now, that I feel like training for a triathlon is just going to add on even more stress, as well as take away from his involvement in our new home and wedding planning.
Don’t get me wrong, I’m so proud and grateful to have such a motivated partner. I always considered myself to be a bit of an overachiever, but he takes the cake. I know becoming a triathlete has always been on his list of things to accomplish, but why does he find it necessary to do this now? Also, this is something I would like to jump on board and take part in, but I just don’t see it being realistic for myself given all of my current responsibilities.
Is it selfish of me to ask him to put it off until the dust settles? I know he would be more than willing and understanding if it meant making me happy, but I also don’t want him to put his goals on hold for me.
I think I just need a good nights sleep. The move in date in our new home got pushed back another two weeks, our contractors aren’t communicating efficiently, and I’ve already bumped our wedding budget $13,000 more than it originally was. I have so many to-do lists, spreadsheets, and people to correspond with. It’s hard to balance it all. It’s like having two full time jobs on top of my real job.
In the end, I’m trying to remind myself to remain calm and enjoy these life milestones as much as possible. I am truly grateful for all of my blessings and have enjoyed so many moments during all of this, so I’d hate to come off as ungrateful. I guess I’m just ready for us to finally be moved in and married and not have to worry about so many other details.
I know many of you bees can relate to the stresses of wedding planning and life!
I genuinely appreciate the support 🙂