- 5 years ago
- Wedding: June 2010
I have been married for 2 1/2 years now and Darling Husband and I have a beautiful little girl.
The problem that I am having is that I don’t want to be with my husband anymore but I can not possibly live without my daughter.
Darling Husband and I are currently in a crazy amount of debt and so neither of us will be able to support ourselves and pay child support.
I feel right now that I am staying with my husband because I am scared of the future. How will I pay my bills? Am I going to be able to keep a roof over my daughters head as well as put food in her belly? Am I going to be able to save up for her education?
I haven’t been happy in my marriage in over a year ever since I had a blow out with his family and it just keeps getting worse. I want nothing to do with his family and I really can’t handle putting up with him for that much longer.
If I say something like “I’m tired”, or “I hurt” he always follows it up with “Thats nothing…” and then he will always tell me how he hurts more or why he is more tired. He always relys on me to do everything for our daughter and I have to pay all the bills and I am the one always keeping the house clean.
The reason why I can’t live like this is because I am in my parents marriage. This is exactly how my mom and dad are. My mom does everything around the house as well as worked.
I would not be complaining at all if I was a stay at home mom but I am not. I work full time. I work all day and then I come home and do everything all night. It already feels like I am a single parent.
I have tried talking to Darling Husband about everything that is bothering me in the relationship but it is like it is going on deaf ears. It doesn’t really seem like he cares enough to change the way he is. I am just so tired of this marriage and I am so scared of leaving him.
Could I please just get some words of encouragement that everything is going to work out in the end.