- 9 years ago
- Wedding: March 2014
Today after a little haitus from Facebook due to some stupid drama, I signed on. Everything was great. Caught up with some friends, browsed through some photos, and then there, in the little corner where Facebook likes to suggest friends to you, was the one that got away.
I haven’t talked to this ex in years. We had a really great relationship, I can honestly say that I loved him and part of me always has. We broke up, and now I really can’t tell you why, other than maybe I was afraid of commitment, and we lost contact. Honestly, the week after we broke up I started to regret my decision, because I knew there was no logical reason to break up with him… I fnd out through mutual friends that he’s dating someone else, I tried calling him in the month after we broke up, but his number changed, he moved and deleted all of his social networks sites… he basically vanished. Which of course really didn’t leave me with any kind of closure.
But after a little over 3 years, he’s suddenly back on Facebook. I didn’t click on his profile or anything, but seeing his picture just, depressed me. I clicked the X beside his name, which is supposed to prevent him from showing up again.
I feel like a bad person because while I love my FH and don’t regret being with him or deciding to marry him by any means, part of me still loves this ex. And has for the last 3 years.
I’ve decided to swear off Facebook again on the off chance that he might pop back up and I’ve decided not to make contact with him or search for his profile. I’d rarely thought about the guy until today…
Ugh. I’m really starting to hate Facebook.