- 6 years ago
I got upset today and I really don’t know why I let myself get all worked up.
My SO was SUPPOSED to propose before my birthday (Tuesday) but the setting I chose was a little more expensive so he told me he needed a slight extension. Totally ok with that because, hey, it’s the setting of my dreams.
Anyway, last week I was talking about making birthday plans with friends and he said “please don’t make any plans over the next week because I don’t want you ruining your birthday surprise!!”
My birthday surprise was him booking me the day off work on Tuesday (yay!) but he didn’t then mention that I’d had my surprise and so I could now make plans for the weekend.
Today, he asked me if I wanted to go to the beach, and I started thinking “omg he’s tricked me!” but no. Instead he asked me to carry all his stuff and said he just wanted to get out of the house for a while. I could tell instantly nothing was planned and thus was a bit ‘meh’ the entire time we were at the beach.
We’re back home now. I feel so angry at myself for psyching myself up about nothing- ESPECIALLY when I know deep down he won’t have the ring for a few more weeks at least.
I need to take my mind off it but I can’t! Boo. At least Doctor Who is on tonight and I have SOMETHING to look forward to!!