- 5 years ago
- Wedding: May 2014
I cannot believe the run of luck I am on. I am 58 days out. And things just keep getting worse. I am freaking out, because I have no control over this stuff!! Just a rundown of what has been going on. In mid February, I had an attack of not being able to breathe. Went to the doctor. Phenumonia is the diagnosis. I miss 3 days of work (not by my choice, I would have much preferred to work……I HAVE A WEDDING TO PAY FOR!!!) With some coaxing from my fiance and boss, I relented and took the time off. Had to also have some female medical procedures done in February. Which I must say were just awful and scarring experiences which I would never have done again!! The experience of the endo biopsy left me feeling so personally violated. It was awful. The nurse literally had to hold me down by my shoulders. While theY ripped my insides out. Going to get a little graphic for a second. They don’t tell you the pain is what it is. The tell you, you will feel some cramping. CRAMPING??? IT FELT LIKE THE DOCTOR WAS GRABBING MY CERVIX WITH PLIERS, AND USING AN EXACTO KNIFE TO GET TISSUE OFF OF MY UTERUS. THE PAIN IS SHOCKING. I CANNOT EVEN BEGIN TO DESCRIBE WHAT IT FEELS LIKE. IT IS SO SUDDEN AND SO UNEXPECTED. MY KNEES WERE TWITCHING OUT OF CONTROL, AND I DAMN NEAR CAME OFF THE TABLE. The nurse had to hold me down my my shoulders, so they could finish the procedure. Two words. NEVER. AGAIN!! This past Saturday, I started having tummy pain. I have had tummy pain off and on for years. I chalk it up as stress. I eat, I get sick, I don’t eat to relieve the pain. I tried this, and still had pain. Went to sleep at night, woke up still had pain. Tried to eat, started having severe pain. On Tuesday, I decided that I would take some Aleve, and would go to work and just deal with the pain. THIS WAS THE WRONG THING TO DO!! I am in transportation. And on most days I am 400+ miles away from home. Well needless to say, the Aleve did nothing for the pain. It got worse. I was seeing stars at times. I was incrredible pain, away from home, and had to somehow get myself all the way back home so I could go to the doctor. I did manage to get home (oh and btw I don’t drive a class C vehicle, I drive hazmat tanker weighing 105,000 lbs), but I have to say that this is by far the dumbest and most stupid decision I have made to date in my occupation. Had I lost conscienceness, it would have been a disaster! I feel really stupid (and lucky) that I was able to make it as far as I did. But anyways, I get home and immeaditely go to the ER. They do blood tests, and urine tests, and find nothing. My blood pressure is 170/90, and my pain is at a 9-10. I feel like I am dying. So they give me some pain meds, and sent me for a CT scan. At some point I passed out from the pain meds, and woke up to the doctor talking to my fiance. Turns out, I have gall stones. Oh no, not one or two…..MY GALLBLADDER IF FULL OF GALLSTONES!! FULL!!!!! So in my very numb-lipped state I am listening to this converstaion, and I am trying to understand…….but all I hear is the Charlie Brown teacher….whaw whaw. And I go home with a referal to a surgeon, and prescriptions. Wake up the next day, called my fiance to see what the instructions from the doctor was. And then I find out that I have to be on a liquid diet until I get in to see the surgeon, and a reminder to not miss the appointment that I have later in the day with my doctor. Okay……..I must admit at this point. I am still feeling pretty high from the pain meds, and so the pain level is managable. I go to my doctors appointment. And the doctor is astonished that I am even able to move around, and function at all. They take my referall call the surgeons office and schedule an appointment which I went to yesterday. The surgeon proceeds to tell me about my condition, since I have no recollection of what the ER doctor said. After spending some time going through my medical history, and family medical history I am left waiting to have surgery until I have consulted with the anasthesology (SP?). And since I am just coming out of a bout of phenumonia I have to wait till my lungs are completely healed. I was really hoping that I could have surgery this coming Monday. Nope, I have to wait until March 24. Which don’t get me wrong. I am grateful for finally having a diagnosis on the tummy problems. But, I don’t know how long it takes to recover fully from gallbladder removal surgery. But my concerns are 1. everything I read about this surgery, patients cannot return to normal eating habits. i.e diarrhea and vomiting that could last for weeks, gas, bloating. and 2. my wedding is in 58 days!! I am on a fat free diet now. AND I AM SO FREAKING HUNGRY!!! I am afraid to eat anything for fear of that pain. I return to work tomorrow, and don’t know what I can eat that won’t make me sick, or bring on that pain. I AM FREAKING OUT!!!!! FIVE WEEKS BEFORE MY WEDDING I AM HAVING SURGERY THAT COULD TOTALLY CHANGE MY DIGESTIVE SYSTEM. I can see me having to stay near a toilet the whole time. Or not being able to partake in any of the wonderful food that I have paid thousands of dollars for. No wine, no champagne, no wedding cake, no dinner, and it just goes on and on. This is the absolutely last thing I needed so close to my wedding. Laproscopic surgery recovery time is 7-10 days. Although I have just about paid off everything for my wedding, I was counting on having some money for our honeymoon. But losing that much time from work, is a loss of $2000. I don’t want to return to work to soon, but I also don’t want to have to scrimp on our honeymoon. This just sucks……but again I am thankful for a diagnosis. I need some input from those of you who have had this procedure done. My father and my sister has had this done. One has no problems eating, the other has every problem under the sun. I feel like it is all crumbling around my feet. This is supposed to be the happiest time of my life. And I just feel sick…….LITERALLY!!