- 11 years ago
- Wedding: July 2010
My Fiance went out of town today while I was at work. We’re meeting for Mem. Day weekend in his hometown for our parents to meet, and he’s going up a couple days early to get some things ready. So I’m flying up on Friday night and meeting him there.
Anyway, I know it sounds bad, but I was kind of looking forward to 2 days alone. To be honest, I enjoy being alone and was looking forward to having today and tomorrow to just do whatever *I* want, on my time, by myself…go get my pedi, go shopping if I feel like it, watch something girly…
But as I was leaving work today, and realized that Fiance was on the road, I felt sad. I “miss him,” and he isn’t even technically absent from my daily life yet!–meaning, I would’ve come home to an empty apartment anyway until he’s done at work…but somehow just knowing he’s not going to come home tonight, and I’m not going to see him till Friday night, is just a weird void. And I wasn’t expecting to “feel” this void.
It’s not like we’ve never been apart–the first 10 months of our relationship were long distance, and I’ve traveled to visit my family without him, etc. I don’t know what makes this time different, but it just reminds me how comfortable and sweet it is to have him in my life, and even when I think I want to be alone, when it comes down to it, I’d rather be with him!