- 8 years ago
- Wedding: July 2011
…..why am i sooo not engrossed in architecture any more?? i mean, it still fascinates me, still holds my interest….but the thought of staying in this field is becoming less and less appealing….too some of you this may sound familiar because i wrote a thread about a week ago about how i just wanted to design and how working in the architecture field, which has been my career goal since i was in elementary school, is not something i’m so sure of anymore….well this thread is more directed towards the ‘lost’ part of it all….
i think what got me to this point is the increasing about of stress and struggle my boss is going thru as the number of jobs coming in decreases….but a huge factor is that I took a year off of studio class and took some electives…one being photography…..omg, i fell in love! to the point where i almost signed up for photography school online, almost switched my major…..but i stopped…i hesitated…started asking myself….what could i see myself doing years from now??? i could see myself capturing those once in a life time moments in peoples lives….but i could also see myself hunched over a computer in a home studio working on an eleborate residential design…..
what’s my passion? as my previous thread stated – “i love to design. period.” i love to think about the composition of a picture before i take it…..i love to design houses, drawings, gift baskets, anything and everything to do with designing….i love art…i love making things, gorgeous and beautiful things…..
but where does that leave me? what direction do i go when the passion i have can be used really anywhere?? oh you can be an interior designer, a landscape architect, a city planner, a photographer, an art teacher, a theatre set designer, a graphic designer…….the list goes on and on and on….and quite frankly, leaves me back to the drawing board….
hmmmm…..what do i wanna be when i grow up???
welcome to ur quarter-life crisis MamaHusky…..no one can figure it out but you….
thanks for listening…. i just needed to get all that out….right now, i’m in the process of doing lots of research into different professions and such…. i want to continue my schooling without switching majors cuz then i will always have that ability to design buildings since i’ll be a registered licensed architect afterwards…..but working in a firm, or owning one is just not that appealing to me anymore….the more i think about it the more the feeling grows…..and what’s worse is that in the back of my mind, i feel like i’ve always had this feeling inside of me… that wanting to design houses or buildings was just another ‘thing’ i liked to do….not necessarily a profession my heart wanted to go for….its saddens me to realize this now, half way thru my schooling…and i kno that its not uncommon…..i’ve read that most adults go thru more than one career change in their life-time….anyways….so now begins the journey of finding my calling….
i love to design. period.