- 8 years ago
- Wedding: September 2010
I have been married for almost 3 months now (yay! Everything is going awesome!) and we’ve recently had The Baby Talk. We’re agreed that the best, most rational, most financially solvent time to start TTC is 2 years in our future- after my husband begins his PhD, we’ve moved to wherever that is, and we’ve settled in (to both the area and the shiney new grad school insurance). And rationally, I get this plan. It makes sense and it makes me value my baby-free time with my husband even more, knowing that our time together without children is finite.
But emotionally? I want a baby! I want to be pregnant, dreaming of what Our baby will look like, how we’ll raise said baby, starting to expand our little family unit, etc. I don’t want to wait to concieve at all! This is made worse by my panic over the idea that it might be really difficult for me to get pregnant, as I have PCOS and have had several cysts burst in the last year (which, Ouch!) and since I’ve been without insurance or (until recently) a full-time job, no money to get tests done to make sure the bursting cysts havn’t done permenant damage. Also,back during June/July, I didn’t have my period for a while (4 months total!) and had ALL the symptoms of being pregnant- which, while unexpected, had me totally over the moon with joy. Well, It turns out I wasn’t pregnant (stupid PCOS messing with my body like that!), but I think the episode made my desire to have a baby much worse then it would have been otherwise. All I can think about since then is “I want to have a baby with my husband!”
How do you deal with the wait? What do I do in the meantime to make myself feel like I’m Not on hold to begin the next step? Is there anyone who said “the heck with being rational” and just started trying with positive results? We just want the best possible start for our future kids, but the wait seems like it’ll be forever!
Also- Anyone else really wish there was a companion site to Wedding Bee called Baby Bee? or Nesting Bee? i love the wedding stuff still, but I’d love to see bloggers chatting about pregnancy, home improvements, and other married life things!