- 2 years ago
Alternative Title: Please forgive me for that crazy thing I just said/did.
Y’all. Please tell me I am not the only one who had fertility meds make them super emotional???
We have been TTC for over 4.5 years and didn’t get to a specialist until just 6 months ago (LONG story, incompetent doctor who wouldn’t listen).
And in my social group, being a mom is just about the height of womanhood. (Not the point of the discussions just setting the stage for my meltdown up). Literally of my friends, only one couple isn’t either currently pregnant or already parents, and they have only been married a year.
Some of out friends have had more than one kid in the time we have been trying. In the months since we started seeing our specialist, between our close friends and acquaintances it has been every other week someone has either delivered or announced a pregnancy. Seriously, for nearly 6 solid months.
I try to be positive, smile and congratulate, go to the showers, coo over newborns, all the stuff. But dang it if today I didn’t just totally lose it. In a grocery store no less.
After another negative month after meds for us and another friend announcing their “oops!!” baby, I was talking to my mom on the phone while I grocery shopped and she said that while she and my dad had been cleaning their storage building, they discovered a box of some of my favorite baby dolls and stuffed animals from when I was little had been infested with mice and most were ruined. This included one my now deceased aunt hand-made me that I had been really excited about passing along to my own kids someday.
And yall. I started bawling in the middle of the cereal aisle. It was so ridiculous. And of course who appears at the other end of said aisle but one of the “oops we got pregnant again less than a year after our last kid!” friends, with her cute little bump and baby in the cart.
So l, full on ugly crying, had to try to find not full aisles so I could leave the store before I saw anyone else I knew! I am normally not a crazy cryer. But dang these meds screwing with my emotional state!!
Please, tell me I am not the only one who did something super ridiculous while fertility treatments toyed with your emotions!!