- 7 years ago
- Wedding: December 2012
I am trying to plan the biggest day of my life. I started planning about a year ago, and have everything I wanted written in my little Marilyn Monroe notebook, but I can’t bring myself to open it again…
It started November 5th, two months ago, when I checked my phone, only to find a message from my best friend of 21 years, older brother, James, sayin
“Shi was in a wreck.. she’s gone. Im sorry”.
Never had I read so little words and have them devistate me so much. Two days later, my fiance, son and I were on our journey 1440 miles away. I hadn’t seen her for almost 4 years, living so far apart. Although I had chatted with her in some form or another almost everyday, all the sudden, it wasn’t enough.
I had planned this whole wedding, and now, I don’t even know what to do. I couldn’t wait to get the date to apply this little notebook and get things in motion. And now that I have my ring and date, all I want to plan is the perfect memorial for her. I think once I figure out how I am going to show my appreciation and love for her, in her memory, I will be able to push forward.
I do know that, I am going to put a candle with her picture and bouquet next to me. Possibly on a pedistal. I have the ribbon I bought and wrapped her flowers and tied the teddy bear to the flowers, that I left where her accident happened and I’m going to tie mine, hers and possibly my cousins bouquet in. My cousin, who was also friends with her, was going to be my other maid of honor. We both have 2 very important people in our side of the bridal party and were torn, so decieded to have 2 maid of honors and 2 best men. Shilo will not be replaced, so I need some ideas how to put something in my wedding to honor her. I am also getting a tattoo she planned on getting on my left forearm of pink flowers. Thanks everyone for the help.