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So, here I am. Found the man I love, got engaged, got married, went on the honeymoon and now trying to conceive. I have waited what feels like an eternity for this time. I’ve strolled through the baby section at Walmart, looked at every online store and of course been addicted to the nesting boards on the bee! The past few years my mind has been filled with nothing but images of what our future family will look like. I am so thrilled to be here right now. But at the same time I sit here (in the bath tub on my phone! That’s where I do my best thinking!) with a million thoughts and emotions running through me. This could be the first day of my last cycle….. by this time next month I could be pregnant.
Now don’t get me wrong, I am well aware that it may not happen the first try but the possibility is there. Which causes me to ask myself am I ready for this? Am I ready to be a mother? Do I know enough and have what it takes? People say that you will never feel completely ready, which I guess is why I am writing all my thoughts here.
I have thought that I have been ready for a long time, I think that we have ” lived our lives” like ppl say you should. We are not too young, we are secure and we have both wanted this for a long time.
Its really strange, one minute I am looking at my belly in the mirror imagining that first flutter, feeling so sure and so excited, then the next minute wondering is it really the right time. I guess that’s what happens when your in the midst of making a life changing decision. So I lay here, first day of my period with my first fertility window just around the corner, emotions taking a roller coaster ride. At the same time I think, if I wasn’t feeling this way, and I did feel completely confident them maybe that would mean that I really didn’t understand the magnitude of bringing a new life into the world. Maybe feelimg a little tinge of uncertainty means that I am ready for this and that I do have what it takes. I guess from here it’s up to God and Mother Nature what happens next. No matter what this is a beautiful and wonderful time in our lives and we have so much to be thankful for. Sorry about the vent just needed to talk 😉
Post # 3
@missstarling: Good luck! Sending positive thoughts and baby dust your way 🙂
Post # 4
@missstarling: This must be so exciting and nerve wracking all at the same time! Remember to have have fun and enjoy! Lots of baby dust your way and hope you get your BFP real soon!
Post # 5
Haha. It’s ok. We only TTC’ed for one month this year and I was freakin’ TERRIFIED after the FW. Like “WHAT DID WE JUST DO?! HOLY CRAP” terrified. lol. I think that happens to everyone a bit. Now that we’re moving in on TTC again (in a few months) for an extended time, I’m so excited and am also going through a lot of things you are. I worry if we’re ready, I worry we’ll be more ready later, I worry about pretty much everything. But I also know we’ll deal with it, and we really want this – both of us.
Good luck! FX for you this month!
Post # 6
omg its nerve wrecking. Now i know why i see all these “could i be pregnant posts?” ALLL the time. Its like you try to not get pregnant for so long the second you want to be pregnant you are unsure of yourself and thinking for sure it worked but maybe not….blah blah.
FYI, we BD’d 2 days before i ovulated (came early) and now i am positive i’m pregnant. Its totally all in my head and probably i’m not but for whatever reason i am currently obsessed with figuring it out. WTF Swizzle get ahold of yourself!
Post # 7
@missstarling: I’m pretty much EXACTLY where you are, on CD 8 of our first cycle TTC. And I have much of the same feelings. I am so unbelievably excited to be starting a family with my husband, but there’s still that little bit of fear there. And I think that’s normal and healthy. Like you said, the magnitude of this decision is huge. I felt similar before I got married, I knew I wanted it and was ready for it and choosing the right person for me, but there’s still that little bit of fear because it’s such a huge thing. Recognizing that it’s huge and lifechanging and you may be a little scared in my mind is much healthier that pretending it’s all roses and unicorns and nothing will change.
ETA: I keep reminding myself that it will happen when it is supposed to happen. I believe in a higher power so I can do all I can but ultimately it’s not up to me when it happens. So far that’s helping me from going completely crazy!
Post # 8
@missstarling: Lol to be blunt, you just DTD and don’t think about it. We did it, and afterwards I was like, “This could be it.” It was scary and exciting all at once.
We only had to say that a few times before it was actually true. Now I sit here, 14 weeks pregnant, not fitting in any of my clothes, and I am happy, excited, and nervous all that the same time. I am definitely not completely ready to be a mom, but I know I will be. I feel I’m not ready not because I have so much more I want to accomplish but because I feel I have so much to do for this baby before he/she comes.
It’s a weird crazy time, and once you fall pregnant, it doesn’t get any easier to try to figure out if you are ready or not. Just letwhatever will happen, happen, and have fun and relax. Your bathtime should help you accomplish that 🙂
Good luck and sending a sprinkling of baby dust your way. (and you will be tickled pink the first time you feel your belly flutter from a baby. It’s very cool and real).
Post # 9
I’m right there with you. I’m on CD7 of my first cycle off birth control in 12 years. Even though we made the decision for me to definitely go off the pill this cycle awhile ago, and I know I won’t ovulate for a week at minimum, possibly months having been on BCP for so long, I think of today as “the” day because today would normally be the day that I would start my next pack of pills. I pretty much never missed a BCP in 12 years so if I had missed the first one of the pack normally I would be freaking out. Now I’m just letting it happen….very different feeling.
I created this username when I was waiting to be engaged and trying to be patient. I’ve been lurking ever since. This TTC process brings a whole new meaning to patience and I’m not sure how well I’m going to cope.
Good luck everyone
Post # 10
I think as time goes on, that excitement and crazy scary feeling starts to fade. I’m in Cycle 6; I pee on sticks, make sure I’m ovulating, get down to business and don’t think about it anymore. I used to obsessively pee on sticks. After this long, and seeing just about everyone in my age group get at least one positive in the same timeframe, I try not to think about it anymore.
But for what it’s worth, odds are pretty strongly in a young person’s favor trying for a baby. I think the going rate is that the majority are still pregnant within 3 months.
Post # 11
I’m sure the excitment does fade…but currently it is very strong.
First BD off the pill today. I know the chances of pregnancy are very very slim at this point but it still feels monumentous.
Post # 12
@PatientBee: the first bd is happening today for us too!!!! Good luck to you!!