Post # 92
Status (MC cycle/rest cycle/TTC cycle): MC Cycle
MC History: I’m currently dealing with my first pregnancy and MC. It started with spotting throughout the entire pregnancy, followed by low/slow rising HCG, then when I should’ve been 7 weeks, I had an u/s measuring 5.5. My HCG came back at 7,000 so there was still hope that I had just o’d later. I had a bad feeling about the pregnancy from day one, although my sister’s first pregnancy was very similar with spotting and low HCG so I took comfort in that. After the u/s I just knew it was over, but the next day when I found out the HCG level I had a tiny bit of hope. The spotting was turning red though, and by Sunday I was cramping. Sunday night I started passing huge clots and saw what looked like the sac. Now I’m just waiting for my HCG test on Friday to confirm that it’s offically over, but I already know that it is.
Issues (if any): I have Crohn’s disease (autoimmune) and potential thyroid issues.
Action Plan for next TTC cycle (ie Baby Aspirin, progesterone, etc): The plan of action right now is to see my GP and have complete bloodwork done. I will potentially see an endocrinologist to review any potential thyroid issues. They run in my family and I won’t be surprised if I’m having issues right now. I also plan to change over to a very clean diet. We are not jumping back into TTC just yet, our wedding is in April and I don’t know if I want to be a pregnant bride. However, I’m 33 and also don’t want to wait forever. We’re just going with the flow. I just don’t want to get pregnant again if my body can’t handle being pregnant. The goal is to get my health in line first. I will not be going back on BC.
Link to chart: I am not charting
Current coping strategies/favorite inspirational quotes: We are lucky to be surrounded by a huge support system and I find strength in my Fiance and loved ones. In particular, my close friend K who MC’d last year at 11 weeks. It was so cathartic to cry with her this morning. She has a beautiful month and a half old son now and I find hope in him.
“No one said it would be easy, they just promised it would be worth it”
Post # 94
@jny1179: Hey, I’m so sorry to see you here. I read your posts on the Feb 2014 board and was impressed with your optimism in the face of troubling symptoms. I didn’t post much over there because I spent most of my pregnancy with a feeling of dread. I’m glad you have an excellent support group. You’ll get by, one day at a time.
@mrsc630: Limbo is the worst. I started bleeding today and it was actually somewhat of a relief. No clotting yet, so I know there is a long way to go before it is over. I haven’t seen my doctor yet, and that gives me some anxiety that maybe it is like an ectopic pregnancy or something scary like that and we don’t know it. I don’t feel any sharp pains though.
@almajele: I am fed up with my doctor. I emailed a midwife tonight, in hopes of getting a different experience. If I have to I will go out of the area to get better care. It would interfere with work, which would be a major commitment.
Post # 95
@mysterybee123: I’m the eternal optimist, but I’ve never had such a strong gut feeling of doom than I did with this pregnancy. I wasn’t sure if it was just my own fear or if it was really my intuition preparing me for this to happen. I’m terrified of trying again but I know that I will. I just know that I’m going to do everything I can to make sure that I am in the best possible health for TTC before trying again. If I MC again I’ll know that it wasn’t anything I could’ve done better. Don’t get me wrong, I don’t blame myself for this, I just want to know going forward that I have the best chance possible to have that sticky baby.
I’m so sorry you’re in limbo. I hope that things progress for you so you don’t have to stress anymore. The weight that’s been lifted off my shoulders is huge. I feel a little guilty saying it sometimes, but it’s a relief that it’s over and I can move forward.
Post # 96
@jny1179: Oh my god, I’m so sorry. BIG hugs, please know that we are here if you need anyone to listen.
Post # 97
@hoogirl05: Thank you so much
Today has been much more difficult than yesterday. After Sunday night I was feeling relief that I finally knew what was going on with my body. Yesterday Fiance stayed home with me and we kept busy, taking the dog to the park, watching movies. I didn’t have too much pain or clots passing. This morning I got up to take a shower expecting to go to work. But the pain was worse and the clots were passing again. I cried and cried. Fiance felt terrible leaving me but he’s behind at work and had to go back. I don’t mind having some alone time. I’ve already told my supervisor that I’ll be taking tomorrow off too. Today I just feel the sadness of the loss.
Post # 98
@jny1179: Oh hun I am so sorry to see this update. I’ve been thinking about you a lot. I know you have a healthy baby in your near future.
Post # 99
@Lyndzo: Thanks luv, I’m hanging in there and hopeful for the future.
Post # 100
@jny1179: Very sorry to hear this, we are all here to support you
Another one of my friends had a baby today… she actually found out her pregnancy during my wedding weekend, so that just shows how long Darling Husband and I have been married without any LO of our own. 🙁 Happy for her and her lovely family, but very scared that the day will never come for us.
Post # 101
Status (MC cycle/rest cycle/TTC cycle): Currently miscarrying. Really started yesterday. I passed the sac and lots of clots last night. I took the day off today.
MC History: This was my first pregnancy, second cycle TTC. I really didn’t think I’d ever be coming to this board. You just don’t think it’s going to happen to you.
Issues (if any):
I don’t have any health problems at all. Of course it’s hard not to think that it’s my fault. Like maybe cleaning out the cat litter caused it. Or eating lunch meat or not weighing enough.
Action Plan for next TTC cycle (ie Baby Aspirin, progesterone, etc): the midwife said it was fine to start trying again as soon as I stop bleeding. Darling Husband says no more NTNP! We are in full on active TTC mode now.
Current coping strategies/favorite inspirational quotes:
Everything happens for a reason. And I truly believe that. It’s really hard to think about but it just wasn’t the right time for that soul to make its appearance in our life. I will try to stay optimistic that it will be soon.
Post # 102
@nataliegrace90: I believe everything happens for a reason as well. I’m so sorry you are going through this. I’m glad you are resting today, I took another day as well, in fact I’m taking tomorrow too. Take good care of yourself.
Post # 103
@nataliegrace90: Sorry to hear you are going through this. It is good that you can start TTC again so soon, though. Hopefully you will get your BFP soon.
Post # 104
@jny1179: take good care of yourself Too.
Post # 105
Today I bought a peony plant (my favorite) and Sunday on my birthday, I’m going to bury my little angel baby and plant the peony with him (or her). Peonies can live up to 100 years and I’m planting it at my in laws house where we got married. It’s somewhere ill be able to see for many years to come and it will offer some closure for them as well. I just want that little soul to know how much it was loved in the short time it was here And that we won’t soon forget him or her.
Post # 106
tatus (MC cycle/rest cycle/TTC cycle): MC cycle/Rest cycle ( I just had my first period after my miscarriage)
MC History: 3 miscarriages-
1st miscarriage in October 2012 at 6 weeks (natural)
2nd miscarriage in March 2013 at 8 weeks (D&C)
3rd miscarriage in May 2013 at 8weeks (natural)
Issues (if any): Mthfr gene C667T (homozygous) , possible low progesterone.
Action Plan for next TTC cycle (ie Baby Aspirin, progesterone, etc): Im taking NeevoDHA (prenatal) , baby aspirin and I will take progesterone and possibly lovenox.
Link to chart: N/A
Current coping strategies/favorite inspirational quotes: I made a beautiful necklace for my 3 little angels… I stay very positive.. I know I will get my rainbow baby. My 1st would have been born June 30th and Im going to release a balloon!