- 5 years ago
- Wedding: September 2014
So I’ve been having these weird dreams lately about other guys. Sometimes it’s a guy I know/am sorta friends with, other times it’s a complete stranger. In the dreams, it’s kinda like we’re all back in high school. Someone will gossip about a guy liking me and do I like him back blah blah. Other times the dreams are more realistic, and I’m flirting w/ a guy or making plans to hang out. Nothing physical or sexual ever happens between me and the other guy, it’s more of a butterflies in the stomach, excitement feeling that you have in the beginning of a relationship.
I was thinking about it this morning and I’m wondering if it comes down to the fact that my relationship w/ Fiance is just flat-out boring as of late. After being with someone for almost 7 years, that “butterfly” feeling is long gone. And I miss flirting with guys, I miss that exciting feeling that comes when you find out someone wants to be w/ you, ya know?
Am I just going through a bored phase? Or maybe it has something to do w/ my low self-esteem and my beating myself up lately about being overweight? I just don’t know what to do. I certainly don’t want to cheat on my Fiance, but I feel like if I don’t get some sort of excitment soon, I’m gonna end up doing something stupid. Any bees that can relate to what I’m going through and offer some advice?