- Miss T-Rex
- 9 years ago
- Wedding: February 2013
I try to be positive and happy and really enjoy all you ladies here on the Bee but today SUCKED.
I have discovered that the problem with waiting to be engaged is, that once your engaged you have to wait SOME MORE before you get married. S-T-U-P-I-D.
So, because I’m curious and I had a wonderful night with a friend last night and we gushed about our men for 2 whole hours I was feeling sooo excited and ready for him to put a ring on it, kiss, and sign a paper stating we are now together till death do we part that this morning I asked him if it would be possible, if I made money and paid off my credit card, if we would be able to elope this December, because it is 4 months away and its very doable and I WANT IT SOOO BAD. I told him I don’t need a wedding, I just need him.
He looked at me and told me to wait until we get engaged first, and that he didn’t think so (in a very determined tone) I was just CRUSHED. I preteneded to try to go back to sleep so he didn’t see me cry. I know we’re getting engaged before the end of the year but I swear if he proposes on December 31, he says it’ll be before then, I will say no and then he’ll have to wait until I’m ready. Okay that’s a lie, I will still say yes because damn it I want to wake up EVERYDAY with him and watch silly tv shows and just know he’s THERE everyday.
Soo much is going on this year, I lost my very best friend (she went a little crazy is my best guess), my grandpa is dying and I still don’t have a job. I just would love to end 2012 with the best thing possible, marrying the man I have fallen soo madly in love with that I WANT to spend it with him.
Before anyone asks me why I want to RUSH things, I don’t see it as rushing. I just know he’s it and he says I’m it and when you know you want to spend the rest of your life with someone you want to start that ASAP. That’s not rushing, I believe I’m being very reasonable. Others of you may disagree and that’s chill.
I’m just soo hurt ladies, I don’t understand what’s going on up in his brain.
Thanks for reading my little rant/vent.
Much love, patience and cocktails to all of you.