- 5 years ago
- Wedding: April 2019
As some of you may/may not know, I got diagnosed with depression early last year. Then had to stop working and stopped university for a while because of it. Then went back to work late last year, and did first semester of university this year. Got diagnosed with Bipolar and Anxiety on top of the depression in March this year. Stopped going to work but finished up the semester of university in June.
Now I am doing a Graduate Diploma in Commerce as I didn’t get the grade to go straight into Masters (on a 7 point scale, needed a 4.5 GPA). So I have to do 8 courses on the Masters program to get a Graduate Diploma in Commerce, and if I get a GPA of 4.5 or better overall I can do the last 4 courses for the Masters and graduate with a Masters degree.
So first semester I missed most of the classes, did what I could at home, which wasn’t much. Passed but only got a GPA of 4. Basically when I go back I need to do a lot better.
I am at the stage where, I may or may not be ready to go back, the medication isn’t quite right yet, but we aren’t doing anything else that will help me get to where I need to be, therapy, etc. So I am getting frustrated, I want to go back to university and work.
So I am looking to go back to university in first semester (end of Feb to mid July) and do 3 courses (subjects). One subject of which will be very difficult for me, Economics. I did it for a little bit in first semester last year, but decided it would be too much juggling two subjects so I dropped it. How do I manage 3 subjects?
I am also hoping to go back and get a job again in the new year. I don’t know whether I should contact the place I was working at when I got diagnosed both times, it was a good job and supportive, I am just nervous about letting them down again, or whether I should look elsewhere, maybe for a different type of job. I was mainly doing data entry and filing there. But in the Accounting/Finance department so in the field I want to work in long term.
And my biggest reason for wanting to go back to work is: money! I am not really making any, those online surveys you have to do a LOT of before you can even make a measly $5! I have been helping my aunt out occasionally for a bit of ‘pocket money’ but it’s not much and it has been spent. I owe Fiance a large amount, even though he said I could take as long as I need to to pay him back. I know it’s weird owing your partner money but I did offer to pay him back, I want to pay him back. I hate relying on him financially. And I still owe an even larger amount into my dividend/savings account that I’m not meant to touch. I was hoping that maybe I would find a really high value ring in one of the diamond candles/candle jewels candles I have gotten over the past few months, but so far no luck. So I think the quickest and best way to pay off that money and start saving again would be for me to start working.
Any advice/support would be appreciated bees! Especially anyone who has some sort of illness like mine (or other illness that impacts on ability to work) that has been able to maintain a job and still work regularly.