Post # 1
and makes me second guess getting pictures from it printed to keep framed in our home.
I was married a little over a week ago and got a lot of the pictures back today (see a recent post). It was lovely. Really. If it weren’t for all the bad feelings I associated with the day itself. It felt like some terrible wedding dream where I was running around throwing a birthday party for myself instead of enjoying it as a person of honor with my husband.
Marriage has been great. I love my man and he adores me, too. We’re in it for the long haul, that’s for sure!
We’ve been through so much together and this too shall pass, I’m sure. I just don’t know when the bad feelings will stop coming when I think about it or when I see photos of the day. I hope to forget the bad details as soon as possible so the pictures are really just a beautiful reminder of our love and I am able to forget the insults I received from DH’s family that day along with feelings of abandonement with so many of those close to me. I wasn’t expecting it to be perfect. But I was expecting to feel cared for and special, not being alone most of the day and having no one around me to the point where I nearly missed walking down the aisle because no one came to get me when the music started early.
Clinging to the happy thoughts and trying to shut out all the bad ones. 🙁
Post # 3
Hugs….I really think time will heal best. As you get farther from the date you will hopefully forget the details and only focus on the happy parts…You may try to have a make up type of deal. Maybe make a weekend getaway and have a relaxing spa weekend with your hubby. I know after all the thought, time, and money put into a weekend won’t “fix” it. But hey..it can’t hurt!
Post # 4
I’m so sorry sweetie! Your pics are beautiful, you can see the love you have for one another. TS is right, time will heal the wounds.
Post # 5
First of all I agree with PP your pictures are amazing! Have you talked with your family to find out where they were or figured out why DH’s dad didn’t speak to him? Maybe once the air is cleared about those little issues you will feel better. In the end remember what the day was about and focus on the happy times with your new DH!
Post # 6
I don’t have any great advice here, but I had to post to say that I know exactly how you feel. You’re not alone in this. You put it into words beautifully by saying it felt like you were throwing a birthday party for yourself. I couldn’t agree more. I had a lovely wedding. It was gorgeous…and I’m still sad about it. I have wonderful husband and I’m grateful for that. The day though was just stressful and I felt like I was having an out of body experience. I didn’t get to relax and enjoy it and found myself catering to everyone else’s needs and problems. It was just so stressful. I didn’t feel like myself. My picutres also didn’t come out quite as I’d hoped, but there are some nice ones. We’ve framed those and made some books from photo websites. I think that will actually help you. You will start to see how nice the pictures are and remember that part of the day. Also, giving pictures or photo books to friends or family might make you feel better. At least in my case, they all said how pretty the day was and were so happy to have the pictures. Then at least, even as stressful as it was for us, I knew that our guests thought of the day fondly. So if nothing else, I planned a nice party, was a good hostess, and the day was a success. Print some photos and see if you can think of it that way. If not, put them in a drawer for a few months and then try again. I stil get upset about some things from the day, but I am feeling better. *hugs*