- 8 years ago
- Wedding: May 2011
SO I’m feeling a little anxious tonight. My Fiance and I went to the first wedding since we’ve become engaged. Its so weird how you just look at everything with a different eye when you are planning your wedding. My family comes from a very small town. People were at my cousins wedding in jeans and cut off shirts, tattoos hanging out. Now don’t get me wrong, my family is a good time, but they are not the most refined bunch.
The wedding that i’m going to have is probably going to be 3 times as much as a typical wedding in my family usually costs. Besides my fam, there won’t be a whole lot of people because my Fiance has a small family. I’m starting to have all sorts of irrational fears:
Like what if no one shows up or worse yet leaves early.
What if they think its “too fancy” and don’t want to come.
What if i’m spending all this money and doing all this wedding planning for no one to really enjoy or appreciate it.
See the wedding i’m going to have is very much my fiance and I. I know we will love it, but its hard to not think of all the money we are spending and how most weddings in my family are done on a much smaller budget. Around our friends and his family, our wedding seems very typical and normal. But when we’re around my family i find myself questioning all my decisions.
For instance I really want a photobooth and everyone in my family thinks its ridiculous and frivilous.