- 5 years ago
- Wedding: April 2015
I’m ranting btw. I feel a sense of comic relief from writing down these feelings, I don’t want anyone to take anything out of context and think I’m complaining or just being negative.
Idk how to plan weddings, I’m 24 years old tomorrow, I got engaged March of this year.
I have no clue what to do!!!!
I’m freaking out a little! Idk when to go wedding dress shopping, Idk how to plan a bridal shower, Idk what to do about a bachelorette party. I feel like I got so much on my mind it’s impossible to think!
I have an aunt who has a knack for planning things, and I want to ask her to help, she’s only 9 years older than me and I think it’d be nice if she had a huge hand in my wedding, she’s been like an older sister and even like a mom to me, my dilema with that is that her and my mom don’t get along, heck my mom and I don’t get along, so this is gonna be a huge struggle.
I also have friends coming in and out of my life, and the ones I personally don’t feel close to REALLY want to be IN my wedding, and the ones I AM close to, really don’t seem interested. But that’s a small dilema compared to the fact that…
We’re in the process of buying a house, and I have NO stinking clue, if buying a house AND having a wedding at the same time will work T_T
I’ve got list to make, things to balance out, I know it’s just a piece of paper to alot of people, and I’ve been told that once you have the wedding alot of women say that they felt like they wasted their time, but on the opposite spectrum it doesn’t feel that way.
I’m overwhelemed and I haven’t even started!
I stretched the wedding into two years cus I thought it would give me enough time to plan, but stretching planning in the space of two years gives you sense of false security.
I’m also afraid this years stretch will do the same.
I have a get it done now attitude and I have to have things perfect :X oh boy I feel the rip of bridezilla coming out…. Like Dr jekyll and Mr Hyde.
Can’t I just make a collage of what I want and hand it somebody to do this stuff for me without spending too much? Can’t things be easy or free?
I know in the end it’ll all work out, and one thing I DO need to work on is when the moment comes, I have to LEARN to IGNORE the stuff that didn’t happen or quite make it or the little details that didn’t come into play or the thing that’s missing…
I need to learn to accept whatever comes.
On one another note: I’m super excited! 😀 I have all these emotions pent up inside me that… In April of 2014 it will be a year before I’m MARRIED! WHATAAAATAATATATATATA?!?!?! OMGOSH!
I’m gonna use this blog to write down what I feel, what issues and great adventures and feeling come up so anyone who reads this might be able to relate HOPEFULLY I’m not the only one! Lol