- 7 years ago
- Wedding: October 2011
At least that’s my thought tonight. 2 weeks until…and I am still trying to convince myself we have more time! I went ballistic about money and started picking on my Fiance like crazy after trying to handle my bubbling up anxiety by working out, going to an AA meeting, going out to dinner with friends….but instead I just tried to explain how getting married is a big undertaking and what marriage means to me (blah, blah) and ended up instead on this rollercoaster emotional ride (and I’m not even hormonal so I can’t blame that!). I went for a ride and sang along to sad music and am finally in my PJ’s ready for bed. But I don’t know WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME! It seems to take very little to set me off the closer we get to the wedding….and suddenly it’s all about this “life altering” decision I’m making… I’m just being ridiculous, I know. And tomorrow I’ll need to get up and apologize profusely for being such an idiot.