- 8 years ago
- Wedding: September 2010
My week started horrible. Sunday night my mom calls my sister (I was with her) and is HYSTERICAL my brother who lives at home got this loser girl pregnant (I’m still not convinced it’s his and wont be until DNA test) who already has 2 kids. It’s my mom’s first grandchild and instead of being excited she is so hysterical, depressed, sad, and I don’t blame her. My bro isn’t responsible for himself let alone a baby. My mom HATES this girl because of some other past issues. I feel like my family is never going to be the same and honestly I know it’s 100% NOT the baby’s fault but I’m just not happy at all about it being born. I want my family back to it’s normal self and sadly it will never be that way again.
Then Tuesday I get in to work and get an email from my BM/one of my BFF’s saying her and her live in boyfriend broke up. I called her and she’s at work in her office crying. I feel horrible about it because she is hurting but deep down she will realize it was meant to be. He wasn’t the guy for her and she had discussed with me her leaving him before so I think she’s just really sad it’s finally over. I told her she can stay w/FI and I if she needs a place and she is looking at apts tonight but still it was something that hurt her and it hurts me to see/hear her upset. Hopefully she’ll get the apt and things will get better soon.
Yesterday I went with Fiance to a dr appoint. He has had a painful lump by his ear and we were both hoping it was a cyst (i had one in that area) and it could be easily removed. However that wasn’t the case, they did a biopsy and we’ll know more tomorrow. I’m just SO scared, stressed. His throat has been hurting him and he sometimes gets sharp stomach pains that come and go quickly. I’m terrified something is wrong. I just pray to god nothing is and it’s just a swollen lymph node due to infection or something.
All I want to do this weekend is snuggle with him, hug my mom and relax. But I can’t because I have to lead a ski trip with 53 international students for the whole day Saturday. The prep for this trip is making me crazy, students are making me crazy and I just want to cry all the time.
I seriously need Fiance to get a clean bill of health, get my mom and fly somewhere warm to relax. Of course that won’t ever happen (the flying part) but I can dream.
Sorry for the rant but I just can’t take the stress anymore. I’m losing it. I wish I could take tomorrow off work but I’m so swamped it’s just not possible.
When it rains it pours.