Post # 1
I should preface this by saying that I’m on my period so I’m super emotional! I always have nightmares, cry, become irritable whenever its that time of the month. I only have my period once every three months (thanks to the pill) because I feel so histrionic! And because of my hormones right now everything is hitting me harder than usual. Right now I’m freaking out about life. My Fiance were both actors (we met while getting our masters in grad school) and I’ve since realized that I love teaching college level as much as I love performing. I also hate the industry in LA and think it’s more trouble than its worth for me personally. My Fiance teaches as well but is becoming pretty successful in his acting career, which is great! He is up and coming, booking consistently, and AMAZINGLY talented. But I still get really scared. I am terrified to raise children in Los Angeles. I want to be close to my mom, who is in San Diego, where I eventually want to move. I feel like the mentality is different in Los Angeles and I don’t like it. Fiance is open to eventually moving, but I feel like I will never see him because he’ll be in LA most of the time. He’s on set for 12 hours a day as it is! I also get freaked out that he’s going to meet some gorgeous, sexy, talented co-star that he develops a crush on. He’s not the cheating kind at all but I know we’re all human and will be attracted to other people. He’s never given me ANY reason to doubt him, I’m just crazy hormonal right now and am stressing about everything! I’m also worried about money. What if he doesn’t make it? What if I can’t move up in the academic world? What if we can’t afford to buy a house…ever? What if we struggle for the rest of our lives!? I’m not good at that! There are so many things I want to do and I’m scared we will never be able to do them. Thanks for listening bees. I don’t know if I feel better for venting or stupid for feeling this way!
Post # 3
I can totally sympathize with being a crying and sliglghty paranoid mess when Im on my period, and definately the week before!
You will have to really sit down with Fiance and make sure its understood what both your goals are in life and what is most important to you!
Take things one day at a time and follow you heart!
Post # 4
@Eva Peron: Thanks! I’ve definitely vocalized my concerns to my Fiance. I alway let him know what’s going on with me emotionally and vice versa. Its just the uncertaintly of it all that gets to me, which everyone has, it just gets to me a lot this time of month!
Post # 5
Oh, I can TOTALLY relate to the hormones…. It’s like clockwork really. But you know what, you can recognize that you may be a little irrantional because it’s the hormones talking! Not that your feelings aren’t valid, because they ARE. This is a scary time in our lives when we’re finding our ways, and trying to make it in this world. There’s no use in torturing yourself with all of the what ifs though! Honestly… just go for a run, take a long hot shower, read a good book, destress a little. Worrying now will do nothing but take a toll on your health. You are marrying the love of your life (in a killer dress, mind you) and you guys will decide what’s best for you both when you get to that point. It’ll all work out… now- go pinterest or watch Jimmy Kimmel for a laugh because it sounds like you need it 🙂 Everything will look better in the morning. AND PS- you both sound extremely talented and like you have DIRECTION and that is AWESOME. You’re pursuing some great things… and you’ll get where you need to be eventually.
Post # 6
@MissTaken: Oh man, I seriously adore you! You just made me feel so much better! Thank you. I was tearing up reading your response (yes, I’m THAT emotional right now!) because it was so sweet. My Fiance just got home from filming and he’s going to read Harry Potter to me! That always destresses me! Thank you!!