- 8 years ago
- Wedding: March 2014
Fiance and I have been together for 2 years, and we’ve been engaged for nearly 3 months. We’re not supposed to get married for another year and a half. I know that it doesn’t seem like a long engagement to some people, I know some of you have 2 or more years to go before the big day.
I just hate not having anything to do. I got engaged and I started planning. I have everything written down that I like. I have written down the venue, the photographer, the menu, the guest list, the flowers, the Bridesmaid or Best Man dresses, the seating chart… Everything is written down, but I can’t do anything else. I can’t go look at my dress, because I don’t want it to just sit for a year and a half, and knowing me I’ll probably gain weight or lose a lot of weight.
I like to keep busy. I ENJOYED wedding planning. I really loved it, and now that it’s over, minus calling to book everything, I feel depressed. Fiance and I got engaged because we were ready to get married, not because we wanted to twiddle our thumbs for nearly 2 years before we got married.
The longer I have to wait, the more likely I am to change absolutely everything. I can’t have a year and a half to plan one thing, because I’ll have everything planned in 3 months, and then I’ll go back over it, change it and still not have anything decided 6 months before the wedding, all because I have way too much time.
Fiance and I orginially picked December 2011 to get married. He’d be done with school and what not, but then, my cousin decided that she wanted to get married on the day that we had picked out. I WANTED that December wedding date more than anything. I had 14 months to plan a wedding, meaning I had 2 months to get everything situated, and then I could book everything, buy my dress and everything would run smoothly…
Now I feel as though everything is messed up… My entire schedule is thrown off. Time is not flying by like I thought/hoped/prayed/was told it would. I like my schedules, and I had one, until all of this. After the December wedding mishap, we started looking for another date. January has 2 weddings in which I am supposed to attend or be a part of. February, there is a baby due and 2 birthdays. March, my parents will be out of town for 2 weeks, and then my brother will be out of town for the last week in the month. April has too many birthdays, and 3 weddings. So that left May…I’m just frustrated. It’s taken all the fun out of being engaged. Us getting engaged was just a technicality anyway. We’d decided a year ago that we were going to get married. The proposal was just a public announcement. So I don’t really want all the time to enjoy being engaged, I kind of already had it…
Sorry guys, had to vent.