Post # 1
2 weeks in and I’m not dealing well.
- I’m so happy to be engaged, but I have no idea when we’ll get to BE together and be engaged. Or even have an engagement party. I don’t even feel engaged yet because we haven’t gotten to spend time together as fiances.
- He doesn’t have skype, because he lives with his grandparents and they don’t have internet. This severely limits some of the ways I can talk to him.
- I have NO IDEA! When I will see him next. I don’t want to visit if we’re still in a place that we can’t even sleep in the same room, because I know it will just make me upset and depressed and it’s almost better sticking to the normal amount of upset and depressed than adding that on to it.. And I DON’T KNOW when or if he’ll visit here. I told him we need to figure it out in the next week before I have an aneurysm.
- He didn’t get the job, which makes me feel like it’s a waste for him to be down there. I know it’s not really, I just can’t help but feel that way. If he’d gotten the job, I’d at least know there was an end in sight. Now I have to wait until he DOES get on with a police department to find out how soon before we are both back in Washington. And if not, find out where I’ll be moving to be with him.
What really got me on this rant is that he told me his sister is visiting this weekend. This totally shouldn’t be such a big deal, but since I found out I can’t stop crying.
I feel like I can’t even breathe right now, and I’m so depressed that I don’t want to leave the house, at all. I’m starting a new job and rather than being excited, I’m scared I’ll be too depressed to do it and I’ll just get fired. Even though I know I’m a good worker.. I just can’t pull it together. I tried going for counselling at school, and a counsellor can’t even take me until school starts. 3 WEEKS. Thanks, university.
I feel like I’m drowning. I have no idea how to cope right now. I need advice.
Post # 3
Oh, honey! I know what you’re going through. LDRs really do suck. I was in one for 5 months right after we got engaged (literally 6 days after) with him in the U.S and me in France. I didn’t feel engaged either, it was really hard.
Why are you guys long distance? I guess I’m a little confused because I don’t know your situation and all.
But I think you should just take a walk! They really can clear my head quite well. Are you upset about not being able to start the wedding planning, or just wanting to see him badly?
Post # 4
@teacherandageek: Yeah, we got engaged about 30 seconds before he left lol! 🙁 It was romantic in a way but my god, I didn’t realize how tough it would be..
It’s kind of complicated. I moved to Utah for school, and he came with. Then he started applying to police jobs all over the country, and told me that he wants me to be okay if he moves to a different state and we have to be long distance for a while. He told me to do what was best for me, so I came back to Washington to finish school, and while we’re long distance I at least have more friends and family. He didn’t want to move back immediately because he didn’t want to pay to move here, and then pay to move again if he gets a job somewhere else!
I mean, I kind of want to start wedding planning.. but it’s going to be two years out at least anyway. That has been bummming me out too, lately, because I don’t want to get married until we won’t be long distance anymore. Especially now that we’re engaged and long distance. I don’t want to not “feel” married! So.. I don’t know when that will be.
I might buy a bike today, lol! I hate walking.. but maybe spending money on a bike will get me moving. We’ll see..
Post # 5
sorry to hear you are having a hard time. long distance sucks at the best of times :-S
can I just ask, why did the sister’s visit make you down?
can he try an internet cafe or something for skype?
Post # 6
@beebee89: I don’t even know! It still makes me pissy, even though it shouldn’t. I’ve let it go mostly, but it’s like WHAT? I just said good-bye to him and she gets to visit now?! It’s almost like salt in the wound… Not that I *should* feel that way and like I said, I’m getting better. Especially because I have more going on now.
I suppose in a way it felt like his life was moving on and mine was stuck! Especially without school/work to keep me busy.
I also booked a ticket down there and told him that if we had a hotel room we could spend the night together in, my emotional needs would be met faster and thus sexy time would happen sooner and more often. I’m pretty sure this will light a fire under his ass to book a hotel room so we can be alone 😉 Haha.
Thanks guys 🙂
Post # 7
I totally feel you, Fiance and I got engaged in Alaska 3 weeks ago, I helped him drive down to Colorado to move there, and in four days our month visit will be over and I have to go back home to California to work while he gets a place and gets settled here. I will join him eventually but the timeline is so up in the air, it totally sucks. Is there anyway he can ask his grandparents to set up internet if he pays the bill? That is Fiance and I’s lifeline, we are on Skype pretty much 24/7, haha.