- 5 years ago
For those who remember my giant rant a few weeks back, I decided to come back and give you all an update! I’m also hoping my story might help someone else.
First thing I did after reading all your posts…I called a therapist that was recommended to me. She didn’t take my particular insurance so instead of calling around for another one I pretty much just dropped the ball on that.
After another moody day full of crying, anxiety, stress and hatred…I decided to call my doctor and let him know what’s going on. That behavior just wasn’t normal for me and a tad extreme for just ‘wanting to be engaged’. So, I talked to my doc and walked out with a prescription for 20 mgs of Prozac!
So it’s been two weeks and although I’m not supposed to feel the full effects of this medicine until a few more weeks, I feel 100000000% BETTER! No more crying, not one Tear. Love my wonderful boyfriend again! Not a day passes that I even think about getting engaged or get mad or even want to talk about the future. I’m more productive at work, I’m sleeping at night (no insomnia) and I haven’t snapped at, yelled at or got in an argument with anyone! Prozac was the BEST thing for me!!! All this time I was either depressed, had major anxiety or both!
Awhile back I had put a reminder in my boyfriends phone to start looking at rings. I remembered this and in my renewed state of well being, felt embarrassed I had done that! I went into his phone and erased it! And while I was there….I snooped in his email!! I know. It’s wrong. Just something that’s a bad habit that I’ll work on. Later. Anyway!!!!! He’s looking at rings and he’s going to propose in December!!! I’m so excited!!
Yes. I ruined the surprise. I don’t care. I love that I know and I can’t begin to tell you how at peace I am with everything. We are also more intimate (without Too Much Information, this was an issue for me but its so much better now!!)
So there it is! To the haters, say whatever you want. It’s not like I’m going to really care. Haha! For those who were supportive. Thank You, Thank You! You helped a very depressed person who is now doing so much better!!!
For those who can relate to the anxiety I had over ‘not knowing’ and ‘waiting’, talk to your doctor about Prozac. Lots of women can handle the highs and lows of life without ever needing drugs. Good for them. They’re very fortunate. For others, it really is a chemical imbalance and getting help to correct it is the best thing you could do for yourself. I was against taking anything like this in the past. Even after having my baby. If I had known how wonderful a capsule could be I’d have started it years ago!!!