(Closed) To bees like me who are childfree because they have to be and it hurts

posted 6 years ago in Married Life
Post # 2
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Busy bee
  • Wedding: June 2015 - Backyard

First off, I suggest quitting Facebook. Social media has a way of making us feel bad about our “friends” and people put this glorified image of their life on there. It just aggravates problems. It’s hard not to compare yourself with others when you’re on a site like Facebook. Especially if you have a mental illness. Living in reality and communicating with people like we used to do in the olden days (phone, in-person) is much healthier IMO.

There’s also the fact that raising kids is hard and it’s not necessarily all it’s cracked up to be. Especially when you’re only hearing the positive parts from other people. Kids don’t always turn out right. Imagine all the other wonderful things you can do with your life. So many things will be easier because you won’t have a kid to worry about. Invest more in your friendships, you can be involved in your friends kid’s lives without being responsible for the upbringing part. 

I am sorry you are having to deal with this, and I’m sure there are others out there who are in a similar situation.

Post # 3
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Bumble bee
  • Wedding: August 2013

 

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Tisa85: I’m not in your position but just wanted to say how unselfish and courageous I think your decision is. I know a lot of people who have children because it’s seen as the thing to do, and they don’t stop to consider the kind of environment they’re bringing children into. 

We are TTC but I have PCOS and DH works away 2 months out of 3 so it’s proving difficult! I get exactly what you mean about seeing other people with their families on Facebook. I don’t know what to say to help, but maybe one day you could do volunteering with kids, or short term fostering or something? 

 

Post # 4
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Sugar bee
  • Wedding: City, State

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Tisa85:  hugs 

It’s hard as **** to deal with.

Like you all I wanted was marriage and a baby. But due to age gap, health and the way the world is we also have chosen not to have babies. 

It kills me seeing babies and children being neglected, dirty and shouted/swore at. I want to stomp over and take the little one. 

I am OK 80% of the time but then things online, TV and in real life make me sad that it’s something I will never experience. 

There is no official charity or support group, page, community for this kind of situation. We just have to find each other via things like the bee and talk it out . 

If you are having bad days you can inbox me to let it out. XXX hugs xxx

Post # 7
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Bumble bee
  • Wedding: January 2016

I’m not in your position, but just wanted to say that I am sorry. I know it is not nearly the same thing, but perhaps you can volunteer through a local agency to be a mentor, or join something like Big sisters. I work with children on a regular basis who could use a good, caring adult in their lives.

Best to you both!

Post # 8
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Sugar bee
  • Wedding: City, State

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Tisa85:  your welcome. It’s still hard now after 8yrs of the realization. I think it will always hurt. There is the kids schooling,cwedding and grandchildren that we will never have. Plus in real life its to painful to get to close toca friends child. 

I think Christmas cqnd Easter time are hard for me as they are heavily child focused. 

 

Post # 9
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Helper bee

I also have a rare type of Muscular Dystrophy, doesn’t even have a specific name it’s more of a description it seems. I am 25 and fertile, and my fiance is healthy, but I don’t see myself getting pregnant due to health issues. I worry so much about my lungs or heart not being able to keep up during the last months of pregnancy when things get though. I mean, if I can barely lift 5 pounds, I don’t see how I would be able to carry 20 extra pounds for months without having health complications related to my muscles giving out. I also have a very sensitive stomach, I get nausea easily and have struggled with weight in the past when I would go through phases of having a weak immune system and getting nausea to the point where it was really hard to keep food down, so it makes me worry that what if that happens during pregnancy, I don’t want to starve the baby by not being able to keep the nutrients down. 

We have talked about adoption and are both on board with it. We really want to also go the ivf route with a surrogate, but it is so expensive and our income is not enough. There is financial assitance for couples that want to go that path, but so far all the programs I have found are only offered to those who are infertile. It sucks that just because we technically CAN have a baby, does not mean we should, but we are treated differently like if it’s our choice.

Post # 11
Hostess
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Sugar Beekeeper
  • Wedding: June 2011

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Tisa85: We’ve been TTC on and off though for 2.5 years. I’m very much in two minds, I can see the pros and cons for having and not having. I find Pinterest and FB can hurt at times. There’s nothing that I can probably say to take your hurt away, hopefully there’ll be something that will ease the pain. 

Post # 12
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Busy bee

Phrases like ‘I never knew real love until baby was born’ or ‘Christmas is so much better as a dad’ are, frankly, complete bullshit.

There are tons of different forms of love that happen on various levels of intensity and one doesn’t take away from the validity of the other.  To say “I never knew real love until I became a mommy/daddy” is a parents’ type of overcompensating.  It’s narcissistic and rude to others.  Basically using this phrase says, “Hey, mom and dad and sibling(s), I was never truly loved by you and I never truly loved you because I wasn’t a parent until now”.  It also says, “I never really loved my husband/wife until we had kids”.  So ridiculous.

And implying that Christmas isn’t special unless you’re a parent is just dumb.  I have very special moments at church, with family, with friends … and none of those moments involve my offspring, because I don’t want or have any.

True, being a parent can be a wonderful thing for many people and it involves both giving and receiving lots of love, but it is not the only way to truly experience it.  Likewise, having children can make Christmas a magical time for many, but it is not the only source of joy and wonderment for most people this time of year.

Just ignore people like the ones who make comments like that (which, I realize, is most definitely easier said than done).  If they say such things in person either don’t reply and make it clear that’s what you’re doing or outright say something like, “Well, I actually find lots of fulfillment from the love my husband and I share, even without kids” or “Actually, I find Christmas to be very enjoyable because I’m surrounded by my friends, family, etc”.  Or, as someone above mentioned, if it happens online either hide their comments/posts, unfollow or unfriend them, or quit social media altogether.  Do what’s best for you and don’t let others distract from the many blessings you do have, despite not having children.  🙂

::hugs::

Post # 13
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Honey bee

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Tisa85:  

I can only imagine your emotions regarding this life pursuit being out of reach. *Cyber hug.*

One thing I wanted to encourage you about, however, is to consider yourself knowledgeable enough about life to feel free to chat with your friends when they discuss parenting and life challenges. Don’t feel that you must remain silent. You have a unique perspective that they don’t share. Your original approach to a lifehack in the home or in the car or wherever could very well be the “lightbulb above the head” that they needed. Don’t sell yourself short as a friend simply because you’re not a mom. Just my $0.02.

 

 

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