- 5 years ago
- Wedding: January 2010
I need to vent.
my mom was supposed to come over today to babysit my one year old so I can get time to organize my stuff before I go back to work after a 15 month leave. She didn’t come because she thinks there is too much snow on the roads even though it did not snow all day and the bulk of yesterday’s storm has been removed.
my husband threw my diclectin in the toilet this morning, thinking it was some other, expired, medication.
i dropped something on the floor one hour into my son’s nap and woke him up. He did not get back to sleep no matter what I did. So I let him up and now am trying to get him to nap again. He is screaming as if someone is trying to murder him. He is almost making himself vomit.
I feel like such a shitty mom for wanting him to get the sleep he needs and wanting one hour of quiet me time.
I decided to stay at home with him as long as possible to raise him, but the winter is driving me crazy. All the other moms I knew and spent time with are now back to work and I am going crazy stuck inside. I don’t even want to do my choirs anymore.
this is my last day as I goback to work on Monday so I should savor it with my son but I am just so desperate for him to sleep already!
on top of that I have to figure out how to tell my new boss on Monday that I am pregnant again and will only be working about six months.
AND those pregnancy hormones are killing my sex drive and I hate that I don’t want it more.
ugh, it’s one of those days. I wrote all this and my son is still screaming. Going to soothe him now.
please words of encouragement if you made it through?